Je t'aime ;

Hi :>

2011-02-26T07:02:00.002+08:00

Renée -

Fuck off la ? 不爽 with what I said on my blog right :> . But you know , thats what you are like . A fucking leech . No wonder my beeetchies are pissed with you . fkoff la ? You think we your bank is it .Don't tell other people that I treat you like shit . Because too bad , I'm not the only one saying you're fuck . You're just a newcomer , don't act until you so dua _|_ .

你连 Sec2 小妹妹都比不上。 I'm sure that if any of my school friends competed with you right , you'd be flattened :D .

Don't say you'll steal my boyfriend , 'Cause you've never even seen him before . :)

-` K's .

2011-02-24T21:27:00.006+08:00

They only have seven days to live.

They bloom on a random day at the end of March to the beginning of April.

Second of all,

if it rains or the wind is too strong, they get blown away.

Kudos to the photographer for having the lucky timing .

The photo is awesome :)

Finally got back our test marks . Except for literature . So yeah . My marks were shitty -.-

English - 19 /30

Maths - 18 / 36 [ Max : 38 ]

Higher MT - 18 / 40

Science - 25 / 40

History - 17/25

Nothing to boast about , but I'm just glad I only failed one subject .

School is kind of tiring nowadays . No motivation to do homework . Rushing through them at night , in the morning , at school . Once again x.x

Today , I realised the depths that guys would go to when they're jealous . So yeah , was feeling guilty in class . Steph like angry at me , sian . What are friends for , right ? ..

Minye , don't emo larh . The normal you is so much cuter .♥

I don't know . Kind of feeling like an extra in my ' clique ' again . Not really with everyone , but just with a certain person .

She happens to treat me like a toy . Whenever I do something that has any benefit to her , she'll be ultra nice to me . However , when my usefulness has expired , she practically treats me like shit . Is she even considered a ' friend ' ? I'm so tired of this insecurities .

My phone bill's going to burst from talking excessively with stupidporkchop ♥ . :B .

@ Steven - YOU THINK YOU SLEEPING BEAUTY IS IT . ACT CUTE LAR YOU .

@K. ♥ - Hi , I sincerely don't feel like forgiving you . However , since I'm such a nice person , I'll forgive you . Don't ever make me go through it again ): .

Truth is , 我舍不得。

Currently waiting for Him♥ to finish tuition . 好想你 :x - blushblush - 嘿嘿嘿。 :3

P.S. I want tags ):

-` Tired ):

2011-02-20T00:14:00.003+08:00

Hilarious :B Imagine if they sang this in Singapore . Omo .

I'm officially tired , limping and missing you .

2011-02-18T23:32:00.000+08:00

Iron lace .

All I can say is that I'm freaking tired and that I really , really miss you a lot .

I miss hearing your mom scream at you in dialect when we talk on the phone .

I miss hearing you 撒娇 and then trying to deny it .

I seriously hate the way I miss you .

-` 情人节 ♥

2011-02-15T23:21:00.003+08:00

Days of joy, days of sadness slowly pass me by
As I try to hold you, you are vanishing before me
You're just an illusion...
When I'm awaken, my tears have dried in the sand of sleep
I'm a rose blooming in the desert .

It ain't a dream . I love you .

Happy Valentines , Babes and Dudes . :)

I know it's kind of late but seeing as I don't really had the time to blog .. It's the thought that counts , right ? I spent my valentines in school with classmates and GB mates . :) Had drill from 2.30 - 4 . First time we were let off so early ! I love drill x) { Although i was the one with the most mistakes } . I don't know , I think that I'm getting more and more sensitive ? .. I wouldn't have cared if people made fun of me before , but when my girlfriends made fun of me , I guess I felt kind of hurt .

After GB , met crazybubbleteaporkchopvalentine outside school :D . He bought me bubble tea and made me run for it >:( . Abigail and Waverly were teasing us over it . Shiatzxcs . ):

Walked with Waverly and Abigail and sms-ed him . He ran / walked fastfast to the MRT and was like , 在偷拍女生的脚 or something . LOL . Then he 陪我 walk until bus stop . So sweet right ? I know . He melts my heart . ♥

{ Stupidporkchop didn't know how to walk back to school . 嘿嘿嘿 . }

Today

Total defence day - sweet potato / tapioca and porridge . :) . One sandwich $4 sia ? Cheeeeaaaatt money ! But I never eat recess . 嘿嘿嘿 . SMART RIGHT :B . I know I am ♥ .

Had one period of play-time because 郑老师 never come . So yeah . Johnny , Jonathan and Kai Eek are hilarious :D

@ Yong Jun - Sorry about throwing your uniform out the window ): . I didn't know my aiming so imba x.x .

Had SSP after school , awesome . :) . I went to sit at Yong Jun's place { Ain't he a good sport ? He's amazing :D } then crapped with Huifang , Peyyin { This two STOWAWAYS . TSKTSK . } and Stephanie . But we took a lot of notes okay ! So 乖 right !

Minye gave me Bueno for Valentine's day . Iloveyou , bro !

After that went Clarke Quay buy sticky :D . Ex die . Stephanie allowed me to touch her FATS . >:D

Special Dedications

@ Regine - 不喜欢就不喜欢。 Like I like you a lot like that sia ? -.- . I rather let my water bottle rot in class than have you touch it with your dirty fingers , dude :)

@ Him - I ask you help me do something , you ask someone I don't like to do it . Then you tell me she doesn't like me . I was about to give you something in return for your ' hard work ' sia ? Disappointed ): . ~ I don't know whether to laugh or scream at you .

@Lionel - Dude , no one hacks into someone's blogger account and then blogs about the contents in facebook . That's dumb . Seriously DUMB .

@Brenda - Let's get matching Domo-kun lanyards ♥

@Huifang - Smiley stickies are awesome . Let's go shopping for them together one day :)

@ Stephanie -

I thought of you when I heard this song . He lives through your veins , babe . I wasn't his choice , try and forgive him :) .

Now you aren't talking to me . Fine . If it's because of common test or something , at least say . It makes me feel like you're abandoning me sia . And for some reason , I feel hurt .

♥

A perfect role model .

"There are only 2 paths in my life for me - either to die as fast as possible, or to live as brilliant a life as I could. I chose the latter."

Blessed Birthday to TanYuanLin !
{ 17th of Feb , I know I'm early , but yeah . }
Enjoy your day and receive a lot a lot of presents :D

-` 怕安靜 .

2011-02-13T22:16:00.000+08:00

Just fuck off . I don't want to see you .

-` Sober intoxication -

2011-02-13T15:56:00.001+08:00

Simplicity at it's best . (L)

Saturday

Was just so damn lazy to post x) . Tired nuh . Slept from 3-5 . Woke up to 3 miss calls and 15 sms-es . Tsk .

Had Girls' Brigade as usual , so long never wear uniform { 3 months like that sia . Omo } . 30minutes of devotion followed by drill :> . The Sec1s went to buy uniform @ GBHQ . Drill was awesome . . ITS A HABIT !!

We did 30 squats . Legs were breaking as we went to change out of uniform ):

After that , went to GBHQ with Waitheng . She's AWESOME <3 So , yeah :) . Bought GB one-fold socks and collected my name tag . { The original font was nicer seh ! ): } Then bus-ed home . Fell asleep again x.x !The bus driver woke me up . So shy -blush -

Went home , ate cup noodle and slept . and slept . :\

After that , order-ed mac and on-ed com . x) . Was talking with Kyson :D I never knew a guy who enjoyed talking on the phone more than me . :x . After like 1hr + , his mom shouted at him or something (?) . Then I refused to call him . The phone is like , so far from my computer ): And its not wireless . Tsk !

Helped Stephiez with JingHong's banner . It looks awesome now :> Then defended her on her tagboard .

And a sudden beetch attack from the dump-ed girl . Sad . She thinks she invented the world and that everyone is copying her . Despite her insistence that everyone is copying her ' inventions ' yet her vocabulary only consists of those same few words .

Talked on the msn-phone thingy . It was weird , I didn't have a mike . And I was laughing to myself -.-

Went to lie on bed at 12+ x) . He called again . And said i sounded like I'm trying to take off an extremely tight shoe ? Omo ? LOL .

I think I was drunk yesterday night . 不知不觉地跟你告白了。
Baby , you make me experience sober intoxication .

@Kyson-

I never thought that you would consent to being my valentine's. You would never know how long I thought about that one sentence before sending it out .

❤

-` Because I've walked in your footsteps ;

2011-02-13T15:50:00.002+08:00

@Those dawgs insulting Stephanie :

She's just another girl who had a rough time with her classmate . Why are you only insulting Stephanie and not reflecting on what the other party did ? 'Because she's crying ? Big deal . All girls cry . Considering that it is a PRIVATE blog , I believe that she has the rights to say out her thoughts . As her friends , shouldn't you respect them and try to understand from her point of view ? Or at least practice tactfulness when correcting Stephanie ? Stop acting like you know everything because you guys don't know EVERYTHING .

Stop being such freaking hypocrites . Don't like what was said ? At least say out your name . That girl has her own faults , like Stephanie . 女孩子的事，你们不要 extra 啦。 Because you'll NEVER UNDERSTAND .

-` Only girl in the world ♥

2011-02-13T01:10:00.000+08:00

I'm falling in love with you . Just stop flirting with me .

Drill is a habit .

-` 初恋情人；

2011-02-11T23:39:00.005+08:00

We all have one. That first boy or girl who made your heart melt. The one you wanted to give your most cherished toy to simply because they made you feel so good and you wanted to do the same for them in return. No matter how old we get and where life takes us, we always hold a special place in our hearts for our first love.

'Cause you're making my heart melt with your actions

MY CLASS FREAKING GAY . LOL . Let me copy one convo x)

-Boy1 10:38pm : wad

-Boy2 10:40pm : i <3 you.

-Boy1 10:40pm : aw

-Boy2 10:40pm : your back so smooth and sexy.

-Boy1 10:42pm : jwidjwiji

-Boy3 10:42pm : wtf

-Boy2 10:43pm : then kai eek's ass very firm

i like i like

-Boy3 10:45pm : LoL

u probably touched every1 ass

-Boy2 10:45pm : yours havent yet leh

-Boy3 10:50pm : soon

soon

-Boy2 10:52pm : glad you know

-Boy3 11:00pm : nto i know or dont know

i am planning it out

what bout the girls

-Boy2 11:00pm : nah strictly homo

HOMO ONLY

OWN-LEE

-Boy3 11:03pm : loo

lol

WTF . LOLOL .

Today was kind of .. tiring 咯 . :\ Today ， Kevin keep asking me to change place with him . Tsk . In the end , didn't change 咯 . Stephaniez went home with a fever ):

Get well soon , darling . ❤

Kind of boring without her . Skipskipskip .

DNT :D .✿ !!!

Samesame , actually . XinYing and I gossiped with Mr Fauzi. LOL . The best thing about IKEA is its meatballz man !

DEDICATIONS ☃ !

@狮子－女人的事，男生不要管比较好 ……

@ K. - 我要奶茶。你嫌我是你的 alarm clock 啊？

不要故意那么讲嘛…… I'm already developing a crush on you )我就是喜欢你，奇奇怪怪，神经病，可爱体贴的你。

2011-02-10T21:29:00.000+08:00

Because we all live under the same starry skies .

I swear . My class is freaking horneh -.-

A root hair cell became a deek = =" .. A ( something something )ball .. became a human ball ? Wtf ): They're slapping deeks everyday .

Gawd , but I think I'm in love with this class .

Today was okayokay .Yeah . School was boring ... up till CE . LOL . That's unpredictable , right ?!?!

We went through the CIP thing . Then Hoi Lok , Austen and Wen Jie switched places . I never knew someone who had 1001 ways to put his legs sia ? -.- Then WE'RE GOING ALL SAINTS HOME . And Mr Teo was like , ' Who go before ? Come , share your experiences ' . Then Wai Theng and I sabo-ed Hoi Lok . HAHAHA . Then I went to sit with darling Wai Theng . :3 . Gossip Gossip x) . Then that ASSHOLE WENT TO STEP ON MY CHAIR . OMO ): KEVINKWANWEIPENG , I SERIOUSLY LOVE YOU MANZ . He exchanged my chair with Hoi Lok's without him knowing . LOLOL . Awesome :)

Science was .. weird . LOL . We all changed seats . 爽咯！I went to sit at JingHong's place , Steph at Brenda's place , YunXuan at Minye's place and the rest flew across the room . It was so .. NICE . Able to sleep peacefully and laugh plentifully . :)

After school , had this Sungei Buloh pre-trip talk . Omo . 30 boys and 12 girls . Just imagine it -.- . EVEN THE TRAINER COULD SEE THAT THEY'RE DIRTY-MINDED . STUPID MOTHER GORILLA .

Seriously , I'm afraid of anything with 6-legs and above , lizards , crocodiles and dead bodies -.- DON'T PURPOSELY SCARE ME LA .

Stephanie , Watch me bite you . I want my privacy manz . TT

& , I don't really like that gal either .

I like this picture sia . Omo . My friend drew it . Freaking jealous of her skills ): !

@Chicken - Don't make me 吃醋， please . 我不想爱上你。

-` IKEA ♥

2011-02-09T21:55:00.000+08:00

因为我舍不得你。
人家想你啦 ……

Today went IKEA . Freaking awesome x) . Jamie and I were one lonely group / pair ): . Sad sia ? We gang-ed up with Steph and WaiTheng and took a freak-in amount of pictures in a FURNITURE SHOP ?!?! -.-

It was like amazing race 咯 . Ran around the stall trying to find tables and lamps . Wtf ):

Lunch was most memorable . Epic . Fun . And because I was HUNGRYYYYY . I didn't eat lunch ley . {THANKS BRENDAFONGMUSHROOM FOR BUYING TWO PACKETS OF BISCUIT . YOU'RE AWESOME } . Ate it during chinese lesson . I CLEARED ALL THE HOMEWORK I OWED , HOW AWESOME IS THAT . :D

Anyway , back to lunch . IKEA meatballs are legendary , yeah ? Steph ate 15 , YunXuan ate 15 , HoiLok ate 15 ? I wonder if they have like , a second stomach or something -.- I ate 5 with pasta and soup and I swore I nearly vomitted ): . I didn't want to torture the plumbing though , I'm awesome . ♥

I just realised , Mrs. Ong is damn scary , you know ? -.- She screams like .. some person that's going to collapse and die . She's violent . She should be like , in charge of uniform groups like SJAB or NPCC . Damn , so strict for what . It's a learning journey , not an army camp . 你以为你是王后是吗？Not everyone needs to listen to you .

Mr Suffian is like a big teddy bear , manzxcs .

我想你。 But I'm hopeless at chasing guys .

-` Chicks over Deeks :)

2011-02-08T06:26:00.000+08:00

Lollipops turn into cigarettes. The innocent ones turn into sluts. Homework goes in the trash. Soda becomes vodka. Kisses turn into sex. Remember when the most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow? And we couldn’t wait to grow up.

- ` 红包！:D

2011-02-06T22:04:00.001+08:00

恭喜发财，
万事如意，
步步高升，
甜甜蜜蜜。 :D

Actually, damn lazy to post about Chinese New Year x) . I'm-ma just going to drink my 燕窝 AND GO SLEEP . MWAHAHA :D

New Year Resolutions -

I resolve to be more humble . That is just a PIECE OF CAKE for a person as talented as me , yeah . :D

-` 恭喜发财－

2011-02-06T01:37:00.000+08:00

Delete from Facebook: Done ✔
Delete from Msn: Done ✔
Delete from cell phone: Done ✔
Delete from the Heart: Error ✖

What if I still love you ? .. 我放不下。我好想你 !

Chinese new year , was boring 啦！My 红包 quality quite good , quantity sucks , yea . ): . Anyway , don't complain 吧 . Sekali next time I give $2 nia :3

新年不就是拜年咯 ……听大人八卦 ……每年都是一样的啦。下次再详细的说明 :D

雨爱

窗外的天气就像是你多变的表情
下雨了雨陪我哭泣
看不清我也不想看清
离开你我安静的抽离不忍揭晓的剧情
我的泪流在心里学会放弃
听雨的声音一滴滴清晰
你的呼吸像雨滴渗入我的爱里
真希望雨能下不停
让想念继续让爱变透明
我爱上给我勇气的Rainie Love
久违的雨滴一滴滴累积
屋内的湿气像储存爱你的记忆
真希望雨能下不停
雨爱的秘密能一直延续
我相信我将会看到彩虹的美丽
冷冷的空气很窒息我无法呼吸
一万颗雨滴的距离很彻底让爱消失无息
离开你我安静的抽离不忍揭晓的剧情
我的泪流在心里学会放弃
听雨的声音一滴滴清晰
你的呼吸像雨滴渗入我的爱里
真希望雨能下不停
让想念继续让爱变透明
我爱上给我勇气的Rainie Love
窗外的雨滴一滴滴累积
屋内的湿气像储存爱你的记忆
真希望雨能下不停
雨爱的秘密能一直延续
我相信我将会看到彩虹的美丽
屋内的湿气像储存爱你的记忆
真希望雨能下不停
雨爱的秘密能一直延续
我相信我将会看到彩虹的美丽

` &. LALALA -

2011-01-30T14:29:00.000+08:00

Just so fcking tired . -.- . Tension headache . Anyway , studying for tests . Like so damn 乖 right ? I'm gonna make them eat their words . ~

Dedications

@BrendaFong - Thanks :B

@Debs - I miss you . LOL .

@Kyson - BUBBLE TEAAAAA ):

To you know who you are - Eh , I ain't your dog . You say , I must listen is it ? I don't fcking care about your opinions _|_ . You really care about him ? Shut up and don't interrupt like you're some prince . 他娶不到老婆，是你的错咯。

Mockingbird - Eminen

Yeah
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what'd daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
Whatchu crying about?
You got me.

Hailie, I know u miss your mom
And I know u miss your dad when I'm gone
But I'm tryin' to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad
Even when you smile
Even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes
Deep inside you wanna cry
Cuz you're scared
I ain't there,
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more cryin'
Wipe them tears
Daddy's here
No more nightmares
We gonna pull together through it
We gon' do it
Lainie's uncle's crazy ain't he, yeah
But he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins
When it swirls
When it whirls
When it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move
Mama's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it
But somehow it seems, the harder that I try to do that
The more it backfires on me
All the things, growin' up
As daddy, daddy had to see
Daddy don't want you to see
But you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way,
Your mother and me
But things have got so bad between us
I don't see us ever being
Together ever again
Like we used to be like when we was teenagers
But then of course
Everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something
We have no control over
And that's what destiny is
But no more worries
Rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up
And this will all just be a dream

Now hush little baby don't you cry
Every thing's gonna be all right
Stiffin' that upper lip up little lady I told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why

We fear how we feel inside, it may seem a little crazy
Pretty baby but I promise, Mama's gon' be alright

It's funny,
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree
And said some of 'em were from me,
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas
I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum,
See daddy had a job, but his job
Was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broken into and robbed or shot up on the block
And your mom, was saving money for you in a jar
Tryna to start a piggy bank for you
So you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars
'Till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your mamma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just starting to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguing a lot
So mama moved back on to Chalmers in a flat
One bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD
And met Dr. Dre and flew you and Mama out to see me,
But daddy had to work, you and mama had to leave me,
Then you started seeing daddy on the TV
And mama didn't like it
And you and Lainnie were too young to understand it
Papa was a rollin' stone, mama developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it firsthand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin' in this empty house,
Just reminiscing. Looking at your baby pictures it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Lainnie I'm talking to you too daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it
Shhh, mama's only gone for the moment

Now hush little baby don't you cry
Every thing's gonna be all right
Stiffin' that upper lip up little lady I told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We fear how we feel inside, it may seem a little crazy
Pretty baby but I promise, mama's gon' be alright

And if you ask me to, daddy's gonna buy you a mocking bird
I'ma give you the world, I'ma buy a diamond ring for you,
I'ma sing for you, I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if that mockingbird don't sing and that ring don't shine
I'ma break that birdie's neck, I'll go back to the jeweler
Who sold it to ya
And make him eat every carat
Don't fuck with Dad (ha ha)

` &. Adapt . -

2011-01-27T21:39:00.006+08:00

In this modern world, you better like the new kind of shooting stars in the sky.
Our lights are blinding us to the real ones.

In our urban jungles, we can't even see the stars in the sky at night anymore.

Airplanes with blinking lights are now cutting edge, the ultimate source to replace our broken wishes from the stars that were gone.

Hi , I'm sick . Flu , cough , fever .

I don't know what I'm feeling . I miss you , but I can't take your insecurities anymore . Maybe I don't act like you're my priority , but you always were .

I can't stand loving you without trust .

MY SCHOOL WAS IN THE NEWSPAPER ♥♥♥

Dedications :

Thanks Bren-z and Huifang , each for different actions , but both that touched me deeply ;D .

Stupid KysonLamHoiLok , I want my bubble tea , I don't care if I'm coughing .

Jinghong , Sing more . It brightens up the class .

2E5 , I THINK I'M FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU . ♥

2011-01-23T01:25:00.005+08:00

Credits to http://www.haur0429.blogspot.com/
I don't know where he got it , so yeah .

I just realised that life sometimes , ain't what it seems . Sometimes relationships just break apart without us even knowing it . Sometimes we get jealous of their new partners , sometimes we realise that it was for the better .

School is fun . Yea , fun . [: . Been fooling around , but studying hard . Girls' Brigade has been like , seriously integrated into my daily life . Better GB than audi anywayz . We've been practicing Creative drill and Stage 2 . I'm just so proud of my fellow Sec2s ! :] Lovin' the things we learn together . GO 蛋挞 BANANA , MANGO AND PAPAYA :B !

I LOVE CHER LLOYD . LIKE OMO . SHE ROCKS .

I feel that every girl is like Cher . I just want to be strong like her .

@ Four-flusher - I'm sorry , but even in a public blog , the writer has the most authority .

` &. Content - ;

2011-01-20T20:41:00.002+08:00

Sometimes , our silent protests are just not enough .

However , other times , we should just take it easy . What doesn't kill us makes us stronger . Bearing grudges against others , cursing them , will only make you feel worse , because you'll feel like the whole world's against you . I guess . ~

School's been tiring , stressful but fun . I'm excelling in English and dying in maths . I'm bonding with old friends and doing weird things with new ones . I'm starting to enjoy this stressful cycle ~ :B

Drill practice tomorrow + HEALTH CHECKUP . OMO . DO WE HAVE SHOTS / JABS . ): . REGISTER NO.1 SUCKS .

@Four-flusher - Erm , well , yea , I'm deeply offended . At least use your name / ign . I don't see how a random passer-by can comment on how I live my life . Don't judge me until you've walked a thousand steps in my shoes .

` &. Beetch -

2011-01-16T00:04:00.003+08:00

I love this picture . It just spells Feminine .

@ Calvin L . - ^ , ;3 .

OMO . <3

HEEE . DOMO-KUN ♥ !!

{ Hot pink class-t for the win ♥ }

[ Treat people the way you want to be treated . I 忍 very long already okay ^^ . ]

Dedications -

@ Brenda - erm , find trouble with Lucas ? Lol ? -.- You think I specially post to let his cpl see uh ? I'm not the only one who is pissed . Maybe someone should get an attitude check .

@Steven - Sadist . LOL . TEACH ME SCIENCE LA . WALAO .

@ Marcus - Yeah , I know I'm like , extremely awesome .

@ Psrby - I've put the credits back at the links there . ;D

@ Four-flusher - Scroll down . I do have a life , just that you happen to be virtual . Reading a no-lifer's blog , is tantamount to being a no-lifer , true ? I'm hot headed both in real life and virtual . Its me , accept it or go away . ~

@ Huifang - Thank WaiTheng , she planned the whole thing . So glad you liked it ;D . Its no biggy , just a link , after all , I'm just stating the facts . It IS AWESOME . ♥

@ XiangWei - I'm hot-headed and short-tempered . Sad . No tolerance for kids .

` &. Weekends ♥ -

2011-01-15T00:13:00.003+08:00

Live , Laugh , Love .

Eat , Pray , Love .

So tired today . Emotionally , physically . I have like , ultra a lot of homework sia ... Sec2 sucks ? Totally . I know that upper sec would be like harder to manage , but I'd like to just focus on my present troubles ;D .

I think I'd just do some dedications .

@Stephanie - I'm sorry , I really am . Je t`adore . ♥

@Steven - This kind of jealous xmm , don't care la . Waste your time only . Dulan pigu la . LOL . Overprotective bro . ♥

@ Calvin L. - Hi . I miss you . ♥♥♥

@ Jing Hong - Goodluck . ♥

@ Jamie - Collect the rings with me on Tuesday . I bet they'd rock ♥ . Had fun running through the rain right ? I know . We're awesome (Y) ♥ .

@ Brenda - Hi babez . You rock -winkz .- MUSHIES FTW (Y) ♥ .

@ Lucas - ZHONGHUA ZHONGHUA ZHONGHUA . LOL . ♥

@ the Limin in my cbox - Erm , hi ? Do you think you're the only Li Min in the world ? LOL . Guilty conscience much . If you want to be told that ' Jealousy Kills ' , just say so . You don't have to reply for my ' friend ' ;D .

I don't mind being a bitch , because that's what I am . I like to express my feelings . I like to say what I want . Isn't that what words are for ? To express your thoughts . Act 到 so 委屈 for what .

http://www.xoxo-shoppinglurves.blogspot.com/

Not mine . But its AWESOME .

2011-01-10T19:12:00.001+08:00

I won't cry . I won't cry . I'll just keep repeating it to myself .. That's enough.

2011-01-09T22:04:00.000+08:00

Okay . Random stuffzxcs .

I was looking through my stats just now . 1558 views ! -shyshy! - ( 小孩子的乐趣）

THE MALAYSIAN RIGHT ....

I BET THAT ITS FALLEN ;shy . ♥

` &. Sunday . -

2011-01-09T21:40:00.003+08:00

"　Do you hear ?
shut the window, love. keep the world outside.
drowning out the sound of the rain,
the ground is getting closer and the sky is falling down. "

I fell in love with the picture , like seriously . Laughs .

Kind of tired now . Today was lifeless .

Kudos to huifang @ perplexed-lovestory@bs.com for this picture . ♥

I still haven't finish my holiday homework . ): HELP . LOL TT .

Nut's so cute ;3 . EUGENE'S A MEANIE . Just because I won't add him on Facebook . ):

Kudos to 丁噹 for this addictive song .

Special Dedications

@ ♥ Cheng Da - Thank you for making my day , yea ;D . I don't think you read my blog anyway . Laughs ! Goodluck for your uniform check on Monday . And also for your camp on Wednesday . Don't whack people la ! So fierce . Tsk .

@ ♥ Alex - It's an addiction . 你培养出来的 ): .

@ ♥ Lucas - You this dog ! ): I asked for your number and you gave me Brenda's . Damn ! Stupid elephant ! Lol ~ [ your voice why still like never break one x.x ? ]

@ ♥ Jace - Purple boy . Or man . Or pig . 傻傻的肥猪猪 ♥

@ ♥ xxxxxx - I know you had fever and you have a lot of activities going on . But I miss spending time with you . You always have some reason for seriously late replies . I really , really want to trust you , but it's like happening everyday , y'know ? ):

@ ♥ Girls' Brigade 48th Coy - JIAYOUS FOR DRILL COMPETITION .
- For the seniors , I know that we all agreed to a new formation , and that we will have to change this and that again . However , I'm sure we can make it with sure determination and hardwork . ♥ JIAYOUS . <3

` &. Complicated - ;

2011-01-09T02:16:00.001+08:00

Live , Love , Laugh !

School starts . Sian ! ): I'm in E5 this year ! Amazingly , I got into HMTL again . ♥

Tuesday

First day of school . Same as last year . All of us rot in the hall .. until recess , followed by a long bonding session with our form teacher . Ew . :\ .

Wednesday

Lessons started .

Literature was fun , like seriously . LOL . Mr Fode looks like he just stepped out of Jurassic Park with that bright and shiny egg of his . :x Reminds me of Mr Victor Tan from Punggol , ah well . Ms Ling / Mrs Tan rocks . Her lessons are bound to be damn memorable ! LOL . She damn bhb , but it only adds to her manly charm .

PE sucked . Majorly . :\ . Mr Liew .. ( already forgot what he looks like ) well , we flew paper aeroplanes . :\ for 45minutes . Then went back to class . He told us some lame shit about having fun during PE , learning new things and exercising . I doubt all the lessons will be fun . :x

HigherMotherTongue was cute . LOL . The whole class was seperated so we had to wait for our teachers to shepherd us to class . Our ( me , mushroom head and Jamie ) teacher thought we knew where to go . Omo . We spent a good 10minutes wandering around the third floor . LOL . Anyway , our teacher ，郑老师 , used to teach in Raffles Girls' School . Amazing . Considering that she was wearing something that resembled a nightie . Anyway , she's cool . I think I might actually enjoy Chinese lessons this year .

( JingHong , WaiTheng , HuiPing they'll got 张老师 . HAHAHA . SUAY ! )

Maths was boring luh . Our teacher cock-eye one . Seriously . I mean literally . LOL . Ms Estee Teo . Ew . She made us stand up one by one and introduce ourselves . Like so primary school sia ? She gave us an overview of what we were going to do the next lesson ( maps and proportion ) . I think I need to bring coffee to school ): !

History and English . Okay . History was .. okay la . LOL . Mrs Roopa's accent is hard to understand . Poor thing , she injured her hand . Looks painful . Anyway , she went through a few slides about the history of Singapore then she let us watch this short .. documentary on the history of Singapore . Okay , repeated . :\ . Lazy to backspace . For English , Miss Janice Tan .. did .. erm . Actually I don't remember . Ah well .

-leaves blank -

Science was boring. I don't even know how to make it fit for my blog .

IT WAS LIKE MR TAN LI CHUN'S LESSON . OMOO ..

Thursday

Thursday was pretty much like Wednesday . Just that lessons started . What the eff is LSS-IBL ? -.- . It was just like ordinary science sia ? Boring to the max . Oh yeah , and we had CE / CCE . Citizenship Civic Education . I think . LOL . BORING . I did my maths holiday homework during his ( Mr Thomas Teo ) lesson . :3

Friday

Boring . Lessons was boring . Only extra thing was that we had D'n'T . Mr Ng Yong Sim brought our files with him to NIE . LOL . :x . Mr Suffian looks like Yong Jun . Which means he looks like a gorilla . With a watermelon . And hairy arms . When he sat on my table ... Omg . I thought it was going to break sia ! LOL . We're going to do a GREEN ENVIRONMENTAL PROJECT FOR IKEA . WOOO ~~ :3 .

After school , we chiong-ed to lunch . Then PAPER AEROPLANE TIME . LOL . Fun to the max . The starting part was boring though . We spent 1 hour slacking in class , doing homework , throwing aeroplanes out the window and polishing boots ( for me ) . Then excitedly ran to our spots on the third floor ( our class is also on the third floor , by the way ) . And waited . And waited . :\

Stephanie and I were like , too hyper . We ran up and down to find friends and wave to them . LOL . We also had a paperplane flying competition . The upper sec planes were of course , better . Gorilla's plane cmi . But its the effort that counts , right ? After that was the actual record breaking event . When the Mrs Dolly Ong ( Her name sucks . Totally . LOL . )banged / hit the gong , omo . Thousands of planes flew down to the parade square ( and pond ) . It was really a sight to behold ;) . I can't find any pictures . It was really , really , a memorable sight .

After the record breaking event , we had CCA Open house . I can't find my name tag siol . ): So stress . TT . Anyway , helped to make bookmarks . Then WaiTheng can't find her wallet . Omoo .. Ran around the school . etc . etc . Then we finally found her wallet under XiuHui's desk . DAMN , I HAVE GOOD EYESIGHT . LOL <3

P.s. Sherlynn's back view looks like Ma'am Happy . =P

Saturday

What the eff . ): First day get scolded already . TT . 40 Squats . Legs pain . We're going to do 12 people creative drill . Seniors and Pioneers , JIAYOUS ! ;D .

( I GOT LITING'S NAMETAG . WOOO <3 LOL )

Mummy got her specs already . I want mine ):

Special special dedications ♥

@ Steven - Like real . I know you miss her . ESPECIALLY ME LA . LOL . Welcome back to audi and Privilege . ;D . Everyday slack at home not good anyway . LOL . Eh , IHATEYOU LA . WALAO . I WANT DIONPWNZ ): WHY SUCKS . EVIL SIA YOU . AT LEAST GIVE ME BACK MY PREVIOUS JR MA ):

@ChengDa - Yeah , you're really special . Really . Not just to make you cheer up . Eheh . :x I promise to sleep early tomorrow night . LOL

@Alex - Heee . I KNOW YOU WOULD READ THIS . Lalala . And what I want to say is , -PULLS YOU EARS!- GOODLUCK IN NS ;D

@Fallen - Thanks for worrying ♥

@Mushroom Head - HEEEEEEE . HELP ME DO HOMEWORK . ;mua . LOL .

@ Liminz - Jealousy kills . ♥

@ Jace - Thankyou . Really . It's damn comforting to have you this 肥猪猪 looking out for me . Although you're always really mean , I think and I feel that you care . Thanks ♥ . Don't party so much . Alcohol and girls overdose ! :3 .

@ Who is reading - If you don't like what I say , don't read . Close the tab / window and fk off . I don't blog for your eyes . If you're going to read my posts and crap up some intentions that I didn't have , I'm sorry , but you're deceiving yourself . Have you heard of retribution ? Well , it bitez . :) Drama Queens ain't really welcome as well . If you think you're all that special and better than everyone , go sit on a golden toilet and blog on a specially created website . If you're going to curse everyone else , too bad . If you didn't say that you're unhappy , too bad . It's because you're a coward , or that what I said was right and that you just want to escape from it ? I doubt I look / sound that scary . -winkz . <3 -

Hey :D .

2011-01-01T03:42:00.001+08:00

Life's kind of messy , hard to clean up but beautiful in every aspect .

HAPPY NEW YEAR DARLINGS . -winkz . -

( Shoot . I just got bitten by an ant -.- )

I'm sleepy . I'll blog later . ( or not ) <3 .

Lurbzxcs . <3

"The Way I Loved You"

He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous
He says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better
He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says you look beautiful tonight
And I feel perfectly fine

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

He respects my space
And never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He's close to my mother
Talks business with my father
He's charming and endearing
And I'm comfortable

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

He can't see the smile I'm faking
And my heart's not breaking
Cause I'm not feeling anything at all
And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating intoxicating
Complicated, got away by some mistake and now

I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
It's 2am and I'm cursing your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breaking down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you oh, oh

And that's the way I loved you oh, oh
Never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

I want someone who will entertain me ,
That will be my life's fireworks .
Scream and shout with me in the craziest situations (Y) .

2010-12-30T19:43:00.000+08:00

Its amazing how much we mean to them .

Nothing to update la ): . Damn no life nowadays . ._.

Eat , Sleep , Shit , Audi . -_- .

Christmas Eve

Went out with Grandmamma and 舅舅 they all . Helped them to move into their new house . I'm like so jealous ! ): River view ley . TT . Then eat at the ' No signboard ' thingy , seafood shop O: . Like that 就 one day fly 了 . ): Where did my holidays go .

Christmas

Daddyeh needed to go back to the shop to help prepare the next day 的 stuffzxcs . So in the end , only ate dinner together . With paternal that side 的 family . O: . Seafood again . Two days of shark fin is kind of sickening . They say 除夕晚上 don't cook steamboat , eat pizza . Eeeyer ): . I like steamboat ley . Like that 就 like that lor . Mamma say after pizza we go Grandmamma's new house eat :x I wanna see 大姨's son ! Efe (Y) . :D

Efe Efe Efe ! <3

Sho cute ):

Passport photo . LOL


Future heartbreaker .

SO ADORABLEEE . ;mua !

Woody Woodpecker . LOL .

i love his shirt sia ! ):


look at his tummy ! Omg :x Laughs !

Bought my schoolbooks . Chionging homework . Where did my holidays fly sia ):

` &. Congratulations , ^^ .

2010-12-23T20:05:00.002+08:00

CONGRATULATIONS TO MY HONEYPIECOUSIN , LI XIN and EDMUND ON STEADING , YEA :D .

I don't take jokes well . :)

What to do ?

2010-12-22T17:36:00.000+08:00

Terribly bored now . Fever . =.= ..

~ Bored .

2010-12-18T02:21:00.000+08:00

"Just for future reference, don't use words like "love" anymore. It's a very sensitive word and it wears out quickly. Romeo barely says it, but John Hinckley filled up a whole journal with it. To put it into your terms, it's a currency that's easily devalued. Pretty soon you're saying it whenever you hang up the phone or whenever you leave. It turns into an apology. Then it's an excuse. Some assholes want it to be a bulletproof vest: don't hate me; I love you. But mostly it just means--more. More, more--give me something more. A couple of years from now, when you're on your own completely, if you really fall in love, if it really comes to that--and I pity you if it does--you have to look right down into the black of her eyes, right down into the emptiness in there and feel everything, absolutely everything she needs and you have to be willing to drown in it, Kevin. You'd have to want to be crushed, buried alive. Because that's what real love feels like--choking. They used to bury some women in their wedding dresses, you know. I thought it was because all those husbands were too cheap to spring for another gown, but now it makes sense: love is your first foot in the grave. That's why the second most abused word is "forever"."

' Without you .. ' :D .

` &. Disney .. ;

2010-12-17T16:35:00.002+08:00

Fairytales don`t exist .
Found this somewhere on tumblr . Or on the internet .

To the author , : Honey , you're amazing .

Why was Snow White given a poisoned apple?
To show us that not everyone is going to be kind and not everyone is really who they say they are.

Why did Cinderella run away at midnight?
To remind us that everything does have its limitations, even dreams.

Why did Ariel exchange her fins for feet?
To show us that people are willing to give up anything to be with who they love just to be happy.

Why did Princess Aurora sleep for 100 years?
To tell us that you might have to wait for quite some time for your true love to come along, sometimes very long...but it's worth it.

Why did Princess Jasmine fall for Aladdin?
To let us know that what the heart wants, it wants it no matter what.

Why was Belle in love with a beast?
To remind us that you can't really help what's on the outside, but if the inside is beautiful, then nothing will stand in the way of your love.

After all, inside every confident woman is a fragile princess waiting to be saved…

Why was Snow White given a poisoned apple?
Because even the ugliest and bitchiest of step mothers knew how much of a gullible retard Snow White was and yes, the redundancy is necessary to fully emphasize how moronic she was. Who accepts an apple—a fruit that grows on frigging trees—from wrinkled old ladies who look like they have jillions of cats at home?

Why did Cinderella run away at midnight?
Because she was trying to pull out a stupid façade for Prince Charming to somehow 'fall in love with her' and really, what kind of a moral is that? Pretend you're some brilliant heiress just to get into guys' pants? Ooh, nice one, Cinderella.

Why did Ariel exchange her fins for feet?
Simple, because she was too busy lusting over Eric's chest to know what she was doing which is even more idiotic than that dwarves' maid, Snow White. Tee hee, look at me, I'm Ariel, the sea kingdom's spoiled brat. I'm so freaking pretty! In fact, I'm so pretty that I'm sure even without my voice, Prince Eric will take me to his bed and not just for a sleepover. Giggle. Giggle. I think I'm in love.

Why did Princess Aurora sleep for 100 years?
Because she had nothing to do in her life aside from waiting for the oh-so heroic prince destined to save her. To further accentuate her meaninglessness, not even the fairies woke her up. I'm betting that they wanted her to sleep for eternity or maybe even dead but they took pity on her parents.

Why did Princess Jasmine fall for Aladdin?
Because she was some out of control brat who wanted to show Agrabah that she was some sort of a hardcore rebel. Didn't the pet tiger make that obvious?

Why was Belle in love with a beast?
Oh gee golly whimsical whiskers, this one's hard. Insert very much needed eye-roll here. Because when Beast magically turned into Sir Oozing-with-sex-appeal, it just had to be love at first sight…not.

` &.HONGKONG ;

2010-12-17T02:53:00.001+08:00

A land of wonders .

Kind of amazing how a holiday would effect a person .

- First Day -

The airplane ride was like , damn short . Maybe because I slept 3/4 of the entire time . :x The food was , kind of , sort of nice . Omelette . I should have ordered the oriental selection ! It smelt the better ! Tsk . Anyway , after that , we checked out and whatever . Customs and all that . Then we took the night time tour at 17.30 . What a joke ! We reached the hotel at around 16.30 ! That was so unfair . We did not have enough time to rest . Tsk . You know why ? Because we had to wait for the coach to fetch EVERYONE ELSE TO THEIR HOTELS . T__T . After that we went to eat ROASTED GOOSE / SWAN . No idea which one is it . It was 烧鹅就对了 ! LOL . Anyway it tastes like duck . Just that it tastes kind of nicer . LOL . 比较嫩 uh . Then we went to the Peak . It`s supposedly the highest point in HongKong . However , actually the other mountains look higher . Then went to Madame Tussand`s Wax Museum . The wax statues are so life-like ! There was this statue in a purple dress that people didn`t even realize was there ! It NEARLY FELL YOU KNOW . And there was a statue of Yao Ming . Let me say this once . And once only . I AM SO DAMN SHORT SIA . I think it is because HE IS FUUCKING TALL . GIRAFFE SIA . LOL . Then we went to watch the 新光大道 . On the bus ride there , I realised , our tour guide , Ben/Patrick . Damn horny + flirty ! Like Fuck ! It is actually just a performance on the tall buildings in hongkong . As in , they light up in different shapes . Supposedly , in the shapes of handprints from the stars . We did not see it thought . It was so boring ! We just walked around the park and took pictures with the beautiful lighted hotels as a background . After that we went back to the hotel . Damn tired de lor . LOL ):

- 2nd Day -

Went to Disneyland . :D . They say that HongKong Disneyland fail de . Actually , its true . Only those few rides . Kinda sian you know . LOL . Also because of my company bah ? Lixin and 姑姑和姑丈都不敢玩或者觉得他们受不了刺激 . So .. Damn boring .

I rode SpaceMountain alone sia ? .. Then everyone else had friends and were talking among themselves after the ride , even the old ladies . Then I was like .. So lonely . Or awkward . Everyone could slowly walk properly , chat and discuss the ride .. That pretty much destroyed my mood for the rest of the day . Lol . After DisnleyLand , we went to another destination . The next stop at their ' MRT ' / ' MTR ' LOL . So sian . Everything was in Chinese . =.= . Then it was like shopping . And shopping . Walked until our legs nearly dropped . That night , LiXin and I stayed in hotel and ordered room service . It was damn nice . :D . Then went to sleep . Damn ass . Bom 就睡着了。LOL . :D .

- 3rd Day -

Third day , woke up right , already feel like we had walked a whole day . Then went to a temple ! It was really very very nice . It was built on a small hill thingy . The temple was fuuuuuull of people . Tsk . Damn sian . LOL . Then went shopping at the shopping mall next to the temple as well as opposite the temple . I bought a pair of shoes . Kind of like boots . There is a kind of chain dangling behind the shoe . I like the punk style :D ! After that , we went back to the hotel and watched television . I was too tired and went to sleep early . Lixin went to stay with 姑姑和姑丈 ! SO DAMN SHIOK . ONE WHOLE HOTEL ROOM TO MYSELF . LOL . Somehow , I thought of you the whole night , do you know that .. ?

- 4th and 5th Day -

Gosh . We went to Macau via ferry . It was so fun ! They say that some people actually get seasick . However , i think it felt damn nice ! :D . A bit like those kind of cradles that people put children when they sleep sia ? I slept 到很爽！Then we reached the tourist arrival hall . There were those promoters . We joined one of them . Our tour-guide was called Jackie . Whats with us and cartoon tourguides . Jackie , Ben , Patrick . Jackie Chan , Ben 10 , Spongebob . Damn . LOL . We went to the major tourist attractions in Macau . Like the temple , churches and hotels . There was this hotel that Andy Lau acted / stayed in . O: . I realised , they really like this red flower . I think in a way , it`s their national flower bah . The church right , I`m not sure which saint`s is it , but it is burnt until there's only one wall left . I believe that church used to be very very majestic and beautiful . The statues left on that last wall , were damn intricate ! The tombs and some of the other structures were still there ! We went into the tomb and it was .. Damn cool . No other words to describe it ! It makes a person feel as though you`re in the presence of a king . I suppose its the atmosphere they constructed in that room . After that , we went to this square where they had put up the Christmas / Chinese New Year / Mid Autumn Festival ! We ate the famous Portuguese egg tarts . They are to die for ! :x

We watched a show called Dragon`s Treasure at the Hard Rock . It`s supposedly 5D . O: . It was in this big big dome-like room , standing space only . It was like , fuucking cool ! But , yea , it tortures your neck muscles . You have to like , crane 3hundredand60degrees to watch the entire show . The music and video effect was .. indescribable :D . BEST OF ALL , IT IS FREE . LOL !

Anyway , after that we went to the Venetian.

A picture paints a thousand words . It also describes what words cannot . The Venetian is BIG BEYOND BIG . WTF . :x

Ate Mac there ley ? LOL . :x . No chilli sauce . ;sigh . Fuucking fail . ._.

After that , took Star Ferry back to Hong Kong and took taxi back to hotel . YOU KNOW THE FERRY THERE . GOT ONE YANDAO TAXI DRIVER . DAMN . However , he was driving to Hong Kong . Not Kowloon . FUUUCK T___T . Wasted , manzcxs .

Next morning , or afternoon , went to eat at a neighbouring cafe . O: . It was packed ! LOL . Li Xin`s portion tasted very nice . :x Mine was erm .. Average . Lol . Then went to hotel and picked up our stuff . Went up ASIALINKS`s coach and went to airport . Then took plane lor . Reached Singapore , came home , dried clothes , slept . I also sms-ed a lot :D . :x . LAUGHS .

` &. Unexpected ;

2010-12-08T03:30:00.001+08:00

Expect Love in the most Unlikely of places .

I`ll update properly later today :D . Tired , and I think I`m feverish ): .

真没想到我会爱上你……

` &. Fly Free . ;

2010-12-05T16:44:00.002+08:00

We jumped .
And for just ..
                          a small..
                                        second...!

    We glided.

When our feet hit the floor, we did it again.

Up the staircase. Garbage bag in both hands. Arms lifted.

Jump!

It felt like discovering a new planet.

Even better;

It felt like discovering love is real.

Magic is real.

Flying..
without..
wings..

Is real.

All that was needed was some naïvety .

` &. Childhood

2010-12-05T03:58:00.000+08:00

Adults are just obsolete children and the hell with them .

Blessed are the dumbfucks .

I miss my childhood . Barbie dolls , winx club , Konapun .. I MISS IT ALL >:Wouldn`t it be nice if we could turn back time and be children again ?

I WANT THIS TOY ..

It`s around $20 - $70 . LOL . :x

@ Maxie ,

Idon`tknow if you`re reading my blog or anything , but CHEERUP OKAY :D . Or I`ll poke you till you give up ! RAWR . LOL .

@ Whoever is pissed by what`s written in my blog .

If you`re unhappy with what`s written in my blog , either tell me , or click on a CUTE RED ' X ' :) . Don`t pretend like you`re okay with it or what . Because your acting skills suck . Seriously .

We were friends from the start .

But we were never close .

One might even say there`s a big chasm between us now .

He rocks . LOL .

' A hooker came to my house and told me to come to the hospital if I want a pleasant present . OF COURSE I RECEIVED THE MESSAGE . ' LOL ~ .

` &. Uncertainty ;

2010-12-02T15:41:00.000+08:00

Death ,

A old relationship is ending .
A new one rising from its ashes .

I’m tired of losing friends
I’m tired of fighting
I’m tired of being lied to
I’m tired of drama
I’m tired of crying
I’m tired of never being happy
I’m tired of trying so hard, and have it be one sided
I’m tired of being bitter
I’m tired of being used.
I’m tired of not sleeping.
I’m tired of missing people
I’m tired of hiding my feelings.
I’m tired of missing you.
I’m tired of trying.
Im tired of being tired .

Just so damn not interested in getting hurt anymore . 2010 is a year of lessons . Hard ones . Cruel ones . I learnt that friends are not to be easily trusted . That what you think is irreplaceable may just be a toy to someone else . In reality , in cyber . I used to be forgiving and soft . I don`t know why . It was just this way .

I`m not a kid anymore . I`m treated as one . I`m living in a simulation of the adult world , I was not prepared . I guess now I am ^^ . Relationships matter little in the real world . Pride , Status and yourself matters the most . Everything as is just a tool , a toy . Something that you use to get to the top . Weaklings will just die off .

Life is a big performance and the world is your stage .

Fool me once, Shame on you .

Fool me twice , Shame on me .

I have 212 friends on Facebook . Yeah well , its a small number but they are all people in my life , people I recognize and see in school . How many of them will be there when I need them . How many can I truly trust .

` &. Salonpas .

2010-12-01T09:57:00.000+08:00

A picture paints a thousand words .

Music soothes the soul .

Okay , I miss camp . LOL . My gosh , I guess I miss the feeling of having a life . LOL . We have drill practice tomorrow . So I guess I`ll still have a life , a pathetic one , but still a life . I wanna buy stickies tomorrow >: . I want smiley and watermelon ! AND THE GRAPE ONE . OMG . ADDICTION ! ♥

Actually , I don`t really feel like doing drill tomorrow anyway . LOL . I have muscle aches , joint pains , countless mosquito bites and bruises ): . I feel half dead already , let alone 2 hours of drill . And NAOMI`S NOT GOING . OMGOD . WHY ISN`T MY SALONPAS BUDDY GOING T__T . I miss her . Sister love ? LOL ♥ ~

I`m like still obsessed with the ' What if .. ' and the blindfolded team building game . I still break into laughter at the thought . LOL . I`m weird . HAHAHA . However , being weird is unique :D . TRY AND COPY ME . LOL . ♥ ~ !!!

Okay , WATCH THIS . THEY ARE LIKE , SO DAMN PRO ? GOSH .

I don`t really recognize the songs though . x.x . BUT I KNOW SOME YEA !

0:06 SHINee - Lucifer

0:26 SHINee - Ring Ding Dong

0:38 Super Junior - Bonamana

0:51 U-Kiss - Man Man Ha Ni

1:05 T-ARA - I Go Crazy Because Of You

1:20 BEAST - Shock

1:34 Big Bang - Haru Haru

1:47 F.T Island - I Hope

2:14 Wonder Girls - 2 Different Tears

2:41 BEAST - Mystery

2:54 4Minute - Huh

3:04 T-ARA - Bo Peep Bo Peep

3:21 Kiss - Because I'm A Woman

3:52 2AM - Even If I Die, I Can't Let You Go

4:20 DBSK - I Believe

4:41 SNSD - Gee ♥

Okay la , I copied one of the comments . But only for reference O: .

Marcus asked me a question today . He asked why am I still so happy although the people I once counted as friends are angry at me . I replied that my happiness does not depend on them . I`m actually happy , to realize who are my true friends and who are just plain hypocrites earlier .

Listen to this song ! :D

Overnight - Amy Grant

So, you've handed in your resignation,

contemplating why nothing turns out right.
A little fed up with all the disappointment,

so what's the point in wasting any time?

It's only temporary, so what's your hurry?
No need to worry. Don't you know that...

If it all just happened overnight, you wouldn't know how much it means.
Yeah. If it all just happened overnight,

you would never learn to believe, in what you cannot see.
Oh, what you cannot see.

I feel like my pace is at a standstill.
Do I wait till it falls into my hands?
A long highway ahead, getting started.
Steady hearted, is what I think I am.

There's something to be said, for experience.
Who knows what's ahead.

Keep on going.

If it all just happened overnight,

you wouldn't know how much it means.
If it all just happened overnight,

you would never learn to believe, in what you cannot see.
Oh, what you cannot see.

Take it a day, a day at a time

One foot in front of the other,
Take it a day, a day at a time
No need to hurry, hurry.

Take it a day, a day at a time

It won't happen overnight.
It won't happen overnight.

Have a little faith,
Must appreciate,
Every single day,
Don't give up, no.

Have a little faith,
Must appreciate,
Every single day,
Don't give up, no.

If it all just happened overnight,

you wouldn't know how much it means.
Yeah. If it all just happened overnight,

you would never learn to believe, in what you cannot see.

If it all just happened overnight,

you wouldn't know how much it means.
Yeah. If it all just happened overnight,

you would never learn to believe in what you cannot see.

Have a little faith,
Must appreciate,
Every single day,
Don't give up, no.

Have a little faith,

Must appreciate,
Every single day,
Don't give up, no.

"If I were not a physicist, I would probably be a musician. I often think in music. I live my daydreams in music. I see my life in terms of music."
— Albert Einstein

"Music expresses that which cannot be put into words and that which cannot remain silent"
— Victor Hugo

Pika♥

` &. Bliss . !

2010-11-29T21:04:00.000+08:00

Hey darlings ,

Watch me drift off to a 18 hour sleep , covered in Mopiko , Yoko Yoko and Salonpas .

Full list of complaints and details added tomorrow .

` &. Camp ;D

2010-11-27T07:00:00.000+08:00

I really have to say , you`re totally cut out for acting . Your state of pretence is never-ending . Its like Hypocrisy , you know ?

Going camp tomorrow , not enough sleep . ._. The fear of not getting enough sleep kept me up all night . x.x Finally getting a life today . Thank god ._. . Cyber used to be a place where I could hide from Reality , now Reality is what I use to evade Cyber . Amazing .

Eh , xuanxuan1997 ,
I seriously don`t know you or whatever . Stop bugging my msn , like seriously , fuck off ? =.= . Damn irritating la hor , every five minutes spam me . LAG YOU KNOW ?

Eh , Jonas ,
Thanks for laughing at me and telling me that that beetch can`t see audi . Ya , i know == . 人家没想到吗! T__T .

Eh, Calvin .
You suck . :\

Loves ,
Pika :DD

` &. Happy Birthday Darling ~

2010-11-26T04:15:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ..

FALLEN YOUNG 熊熊！

Thank you for loving me and sweet talking me ~ LOL . Cheer up and stop talking malay to me . It`s so totally mean >: Remember the piranha thing . :D .

And please la , stop being so horny . It`s seriously not good for health ._.

Love ,

Pika .

P.S.

Remember my panda bear + chocolates + roses :D .

` &. Topsy Turvy .

2010-11-26T01:04:00.000+08:00

Up becomes down .

What more is there to say ;) ?

` &. Freedom . ;

2010-11-25T03:05:00.000+08:00

you can miss someone who died ,
you can miss someone who moved away,
but the worst is having to miss someone you see everyday.

Fly Free .

Freedom of speech and thoughts .

Sometimes its better to be a nobody than to have influence .

You never know when someone would follow in your footsteps and do stupid things .

2010-11-24T01:49:00.000+08:00

Omg , CalvinLam and StevenTan are freaking lame . They came to MSN just to ask who I think is more handsome ? I never knew my opinion mattered so much .

` &. Tired . ;

2010-11-24T01:41:00.000+08:00

My dreams became nightmares.

Your promises became lies.

Our smiles became tears.

I`m all alone .

What else do you want from me ?

Just kind of in a bad mood now. Lol . No idea why . Came home from shopping at Chinatown . Bought some new clothes . I`m scared of the cold I`d face at HongKong . 姑姑 told me it would be around 10^oC or lower . I`m scared of being a popsicle . I wouldn`t even be able to see snow as a compensation . Damn . Maybe being a popsicle would be a good enough reason to not go out with Lynn ? LOL . ~

我祝CalvinLam and StevenTan a long and happy r/s . :D

Now there`s been a lot of talk about the people who left KMA . I`m not one to judge , since I`ve left it before . However , its wrong to drag people alone with you , right ? That means you weren`t truly a KMA-ian , instead , just a follower ?

I really wonder what`s a friend , sometimes . Really .

xoxoxo

Pika

` &. GoneInAFlash .

2010-11-20T23:01:00.000+08:00

Ahahahaha . 5seconds Revival :D .

I cpl-ed , married , lovepartied ~Moments . Gawd , I`d never have had the chance to even think that a few months ago ! LOL . Anyway , I quitted -KissMyAss- a few weeks ? Days ? Ago . Joined HoldMyHands.

I joined back -KissMyAss- , Now its dying . Amazing .

Who`d have thought that -KissMyAss- had a butterfly`s lifespan .

` &. 甜甜的。

2010-11-14T21:49:00.004+08:00

` &. An Indescribable Sweetness . Irreplaceable .

It rained today . So nice for sleeping :3 . Wondering what will happen if one day , I look out of the window and I see half the world submerged in water . Anywhere flooded , by the way ?

Forced Dedications , ♥

To Xinhan >

A picture paints a thousand words . So that makes 970 words more than Steven 30`s words . Happy ?

To Lucas >

You fucking flirt . You suck .

She who rocks your world

Pika ♥

` &. Innocence

2010-11-14T02:59:00.003+08:00

` & ;. The trust of the innocent is the liar's most useful tool . ;

Open house today . I don`t think my school publicized it well enough , not much people attended . Which meant there were even less girls . Which meant there was practically no ' business ' . It was kind of scary at the start , but Esther , Eunice , YunTing and I started getting hyper and everything became fun ~ I think the future Sec1s are shy though . They were all cowering behind their mothers . Except for one girl . She looks sporty , sounds sporty , just worried that she`ll join basketball instead . ):

The shopping mall`s nearly finished ! GO NEX :D . It looks so coool . Can`t wait for it to open officially . However , I still think it`s stupid for the government to open a shopping mall next to two schools . Teachers now have extra patrol duty . Does that mean extra salary ?

Came home , napped . Woke up at 6pm+ , went to buy dinner . Came home , switched on computer , played audition . I need a life . =.-

Special Dedications :

To & ; Lucas !

You have a freaking cute voice :3 . You owe me a song rendition of the Singapore National Anthem / Taylor Swift - Today Was a Fairytale . I think I`m getting addicted to your voice again . Damn . You and your ' Hi ~~~~ 's and ' Huh ~~~~~ 's . They`re like drugs . By the way , I still think you`re taking drugs to grow so tall , giants are just not cool ! Kissing them is a nuisance . ): And I`m JEALOUS . YOU NEVER HUG ME TT .

To & ; Steven !

You still have not sang me the Gloomy Salad Days theme song . Old man , you suck . By the way , episode 11 and 12 of Gloomy Salad Days is out already !

To & ; Calvin L. !

No matter how squeaky / high / manly your voice is , you`d still be an important adorable pie (L) . After all , you`re king of KissMyAss (Y) :D

To & ; Jace C. !

You rock , only because I`m addicted to you . Being so seductive and charming is a sin .

To & ; XinHan !

Being young is a blessing . :D

To &; Bren !

It`s nice to talk to you again . Bffs (L) .

To & ; Chi Haur !

You suck . To the max . Bully !

She who rocks your world

Pika ♥

2010-11-13T08:30:00.000+08:00

`&. if you don't want to get hurt,
listen to your mind, not your heart.
It was true, I wasn't hurt,

but i was never happy either.

You know there`s something wrong when you wake up at 8 in the morning to post about how scary the open house is . I think it`s stage fright . What will I say to the parents ? Will the parents turn away and frown after listening to me ?

I had nightmares again . Of BMH and KMA ): . Sabi said that I was a Snork [ which actually means spy ] , then Brenda asked me if I could see how hurt she was and how she was weeping . Grand daddyeh was ignoring me ! God , that was scary .

She who rocks your world

Pika ♥

2010-11-13T01:13:00.004+08:00

A perfect drawing of love .
Simple and plain but beautiful and irreplaceable .

I`m not snogging my bed and pillow now .. because .. I JUST REMEMBERED SOMETHING .

I SAW SOMEONE FROM LORD OF THE RINGS AT BRENDA AND STEVEN`S WEDDING .

Yeah , well . Not nicely done . Sorry ): . I`d get it fixed tomorrow . HAHAHA . <3

Pikapikachuuu .

` &. Friends Or Lovers ?

2010-11-13T01:03:00.001+08:00

     `&;. Do I love him for who he Is, Or for who he could be
      Can I handle him saying No?
      Or would it be worse if all I heard was silence?
      I think I really 培养出 feelings for you 了 ...

      他妈的，

Went back to school for creative drill practice today . It was so tiring ! Especially because I accidentally tore my wound open again . I wanted to take a picture , however , I decided against disgusting my readers , so I`ll just describe it ! It`s red and kinda purple around the edges , its issuing yellow , transparent juices along with blood >.> . Sounds yucky right ? Well , it looks worse .

Back to the topic of creative drill , it`s actually one of the events in drill competition . It`s actually quite interesting because Ma`am Rachel IS SO ADORABLE ! Just very tiring , because we don`t timing . Just listening the beat doesn`t work ! Perhaps because we don`t know how to count properly . I THINK , i remember the steps already . Hee . We`re using a song called Inspired . It`s actually quite groovy but personally I prefer our seniors` song ! It sounds kinda familiar , maybe that`s why I like it . Tired . However , I want more practices ! The competition is in March , NEXT YEAR . I`m scared .

Immediately after practice, Sabi said Ct shooting her again . Tsk . On the phone somemore . However , I called Lynn , and Lynn said that Ct didn`t call Sabi , But rather , She called Sabi . Confusing right ? Yeah , totally . I`m so not going to care . Sabi`s like kind of angry at me anyway .

At least -KissMyAss- members and Idahyu aren`t angry at me anymore ~ ! Weee ~ But I`m kind of pissed at Clarence .I suppose he deserves it ? I can`t stand his ' find - trouble ' ways ! However , Brenzie and him are friends , so , erm , i guess , good luck ! There`s like , an amazing amount of people wanting to whack him . STEVEN , REMEMBER TO PROTECT MY BFF :D !

Yeah , I think the feeling`s fading . I doubt it was even there in the first place . I probably just misunderstood the feeling . Heehee , sorry Bren ! :3

Everyone`s not mad at me anymore . I guess there are still some disappointment , but I thank all of them for not bearing grudges ! Calvin , Lucas , Bren and Idahyu you guys are very important to me . Really . For Steven . Mac and Xh , I guess we don`t really know each other that well . No bonding or whatever . But you guys are irreplaceable :D .

Lynn`s scary . She`s a great friend , a pure darling . Hotheaded but scary . She just has that aura around her . TT . But , she settles everything . Just hope everything ends well .

Congrats to XxVINxX and ~Summer ! THANKS FOR THE FLOWER <3

CONGRATS TO BRENZIE AND STEVEN :D . Bren`s aiming sucks . Calvin got the flower ): . Damn . TT . But it was an amazing wedding with so much pure skill ! :x 早生贵子！

All`s well will end well . (L)

xoxoxo

Pika♥

P.S.

Maybe not .

I have open house to participate in tomorrow or today . Sigh .

` &. Silent Screams

2010-11-11T19:52:00.003+08:00

Our pleas are not to be heard , not to be answered .

对啦对啦，全部都是我的错。

-KissMyAss- in turmoil , it`s my fault . Because of what , I don`t know . But it`s my fault . Idahyu`s blaming me . Calvin`s blaming me . Personally , I can`t see why , but it`s my fault . Someone enlighten me ? Nah , everyone`s asking BreakMyHeart people to freak off . So I guess I won`t get any answer .

But I`m not BreakMyHeart people anymore . I`m not a -KissMyAss- person as well . I don`t fit in anywhere .

Forget it . Forget it . I`m going to work my best in forgetting everything . I`m going to work my ass off in forgetting , in quitting . Playing this war game , is killing me .

I seriously need a life .

Big Time Rush - Till I Forget About You

Get a call on a random afternoon
I pick it up and I see that it's you
I like my heart you were breaking the news
You say it's over, it's over, it's over
Heading out cause I'm out of my mind
All my friends are gonna see me tonight
Staying here 'til the sun starts to rise
And I'm, I'm gonna, I'm gonna, I'm gonna

Chorus:
Dance hard, laugh more, turn the music up now
Party like a rock star can I get a what now!
I swear I'll do anything that I have to
Til I forget about;
Jump up, fall down gotta play it loud now
Don't care, my head's spinning all around now
I swear I'll do anything that I have to
Til I forget about you

Til I forget about you

I bet you thought I'd be here on my own
Waiting for you to knock on my door
Since you left I don't wait by the phone
I'm moving, I'm moving, I'm moving
I found a place were I can lose myself
And just leave your memory on the shelf
See I'm fine, no I don't need nobody else
Cause I'm goin', I'm goin', I'm goin'

Chorus:
Dance hard, laugh more, turn the music up now
Party like a rock star can I get a what now!
I swear I'll do anything that I have to
Til I forget about;
Jump up, fall down gotta play it loud now
Don't care, my head's spinning all around now
I swear I'll do anything that I have to
Til I forget about you

Spending money like it don't mean a thing
I'm going crazy now don't even think
losing my mind
is all I can do
Til I forget about you

Chorus:
Dance hard, laugh more, turn the music up now
Party like a rock star can I get a what now!
I swear I'll do anything that I have to
Til I forget about;
Jump up, fall down gotta play it loud now
Don't care, my head's spinning all around now
I swear I'll do anything that I have to
Til I forget about you

Till I forget about you
(Til I forget about you)
I'm gonna forget about you

xoxoxox

Pika♥

` &. Friends ;

2010-11-11T02:16:00.006+08:00

Yea well , I joined BreakMyHeart .

For me now , any decision is wrong . Any decision will leave behind regrets . But .. This is for the best . I feel better in BreakMyHeart . I just do . -KissMyAss- .. Idon`tknow . The people changed , maybe i`ve changed , but everything does not feel the same anymore . I can`t keep up .

Today , those last few hours , i laughed like i`ve never laughed before , in days . Maybe because I was harbouring too much ill thoughts in Kma . Maybe I`m blind , and could not see what I was missing out . In Bmh .. Things are just different ? Fps .. dens .. don`t matter as much . They`re all there to just have fun . The trust there .. the bond , seems stronger , safer .

Or maybe its because i know them better ? I don`t know ..

真的，真的，对不起。但是这样子，日子会比较好过。

习惯就好。。the heartache feeling .. 习惯就好。。why is it that Bren knows all my buttons , and when to push them . Steven`s sad . Calvin`s angry . Steven`s blaming Calvin . Aira`s disappointed . I`m feeling guilty .. but i really don`t want to go back to Kma .. i don`t want to be a lightbulb . I`m stuck with that feeling there. I`m not tempted to go back under the label of traitor either

Clarence isn`t like what , Bren , Xh , Steven and Lucas says . Yeah , fine , he may be proud , he`s fam may be flooding Novice1 . But he`s a great friend .. Dogdogdogdogdog . Fine . We`re all dogs ? I`m a traitor , he`s proud , you guys are insulting someone behind his back.

Maybe i`m being oversensitive by saying childish is an insult . But calling someone silly and immature , really feelings insulting .

他输不起有真么样？我也是输不起。他骄傲又真么样，我也很骄傲 .

You guys also said , BreakMyHeart new novice fam , -KissMyAss- got so much more experience and ' big friends ' ? [ Sorry for the mafia term or whatever . i cant think of the proper english words for it -.- ] Like bullying sia . 我的良心过不去。:)

True friends don`t care what FAM you`re in . This is the test of our friendship .

xoxoxo

♥Pika

` &. Poor Man`s Apology

2010-11-11T02:11:00.000+08:00

About my previous posts , apparently I made some mistakes .

I`m sorry .

Apparently , only -CHELLE , whoever was in it at that time , called Clarence dog . Totally not sure who is it , because apparently , that account already called Clarence dog before the fam battle , in a CC4 room .

Clarence , i don`t know if you`re reading my blog or whatever . But just wanna tell you ,

It`s SO FUUCKING 丢脸 TO BE YOUR 女儿 .

They want to play first , you must continue ? Still call what SYM master come . You think you're a Lion ? Your pride matters so much ?

I`m not happy that KissMyAss is in turmoil either . Stop pushing the blame on me for your weaknesses . I haven`t been participating actively in fam rooms / fam chat the past few days and I don`t feel that anything changed . If the bond between KissMyAss members was strong , you wouldn`t have argued among yourselves at all .

Disappointed , because i hopped to BreakMyHeart immediately after quitting ? Or what ?

` &. Trust .

2010-11-10T21:17:00.002+08:00

When angels fall

can you hear them cry?

They`ve lost their wings,

They`ve forgotten how to fly.

Can you feel their regret?

Can you taste the tears they

shed?

They set their hearts free

Do you believe?

When angels fall,

Will they learn how to fly

again?

Will they ever get up at all?

Or is this the end?

Will you pray for the angels

tonight?

Will you taste their tears?

Will you hear their cries?

I saw an angel fall,

I was there.

I wanted to fix its bleeding

heart.

But all i could do

Was stare.

New beginnings

The page once written has

been read

The chapter closed and

done

Time now to leave behind

regrets

And walk towards the sun

That rises to another day

That`s brighter than the

last

Leave all bitterness

behind

You have divorced the

past

Be positive about your life

The changes you`ve been

through

In turn you`ll come to

recognize

A stronger you .

`&. Gravity !

2010-11-10T21:05:00.006+08:00

Its something that everyone needs . But not everyone cares about .

Today`s like every other day . Wake Up , Eat , On Computer .

It`s becoming a routine . Damn , i need a life -.- My life in auditionsea , is about to go boom anyway . My baobei BreakMyHeart and my Lovely -KissMyAss- arguing now ):

I don`t know who to side . Or who to trust . Apparently , Kma does not trust me at all ? They suspected there was a traitor , and immediately Lucas said ' Dion lah , she clarence`s daughter ' and Kim agreed . Apparently , Grand daddy xh agrees as well , Sabi told me . Damn . Thanks for the trust . I know how Cl feels now ٩(•̮̮̃•̃)۶

I thought we were friends . But now , i feel like a lightbulb everywhere . Steven`s coupled with Brenda , Calvin`s coupled with Aira , and i was never close with Lawrence . Sigh . I think i`m jealous ): Feeling like an extra now . Clarence and Sabi trying to get me to jump ship to Bmh . So tempted sia ): . 可是我舍不得 Calvin and Aira .

What happened to the days when all that mattered was dens and friends ? Why is everyone purposely finding fault with each other , fighting , insulting and cheating ? Was it like this the whole time ? I feel like everyone`s changing and I can`t keep up . People like Sabi , change just the slightest bit . However , people like Xh , become a world apart . Was i really blind before ? Why did i regain my sight now ? Ignorance is bliss .

My decision is that , if i`m asked to leave , i`ll never come back . Kma can rot for all i care . Besides , there`s really not much to lose , is there ? Only my heart knows the answer , and it`s telling me that true friends don`t care which FAM you`re in .

xoxoxo,

Pika

` &. Love bites . ;

2010-11-09T23:42:00.000+08:00

Don`t know what to post ? Sigh .

Cold and numb now . I hope it rains tonight . .. Let the raindrops fall and wash everything away .

Trudging on green fields

With yellow flowers , brown

mud --

And a heavy heart.

Clutched in hand

Something tied to a string--

A letter stained with sorrow.

She stops in her tracks

Raises her clutched fist --

And releases.

The balloon flies

Towards the blue sky--

As tears flow.

A bittersweet smile

As she whispers to the wind--

" The art of letting go."

:DD

2010-11-08T17:55:00.001+08:00

How am i supposed to start a post ? ._.

So supremely , dumb-ingly blur now ):

ithinki`minlove . how ? -.- . I feel like Hinamori Amu from Shugo Chara ): . Wapiangeh . Audi`s screwing with my lovelife sia . Anyway , don`t audi also nothing to do . LOL . Like totally broke off contact with everyone from school ? O: . Except for GB luh . This Friday and Saturday still have to go back . Guess it would be fun :D

I learnt some things this hols . :\ . Guys like to pretend . Pride and Trust matters damn lot ? And they would do anything to avoid awkward moments . I guess this applies to girls as well . Awkward moments .. call for the .. AWKWARD TURTLE MOVE :D . WOOO . :D

I`m like , being lame . I guess its because i have nothing to say , but wanna say something ? LOL . Watching Gloomy Salad Days now . IT ROCKS . YOU SHOULD TOTALLY WATCH IT :D

The english translation damn off wor . Sibeh sian . LOL .I lost interest in blogging le ;etc . Gonna del those blogwalker messages now -.-

TATA :D

Laziness .

2010-10-17T14:29:00.000+08:00

Congrats to ~xFroZen~ AND THANK YOU FOR THE FLOWER <3

I`m addicted . AGAIN <3 The fun and laughter in audi is just irreplaceable .

-KissMyAss- is hereby revived . By Brenda , Lyn and CT .

I think i`ve fallen in love again . C.Hie . ):

2010-10-06T21:56:00.000+08:00

因为笨拙，所以努力；

因为嘲笑，所以前进；

因为跌倒，所以站起；

因为希望，所以成功；

化痛苦为力量，聚失败为成功.

I will never make that mistake again .

Tell me if you want me in your life . Goodbye ;

): !

2010-10-04T06:10:00.002+08:00

I don't wanna go school .. ):

Albee , 나는 정말 빌어먹을 실망이야 .

2010-10-02T01:50:00.002+08:00

' Wai Theng 'gaged 양요섭 SORRY.Some posts aren't written for you so you don't have to reply to all the posts which we post.They are for friends who does projects promptly but not storming off without telling us the reason.But if you want to reply, why don't you reply to this[whenever i walk past a shop and hear a familar song,i would sing alon...g with it],[whenever i mute an mv,i would sing the song in my mind] '

I just noticed this post ;o . Cos i'm bored C: ~ Lol ! :x Didn't want to post today . I've been feeling very content nowadays . With a lack of ' friends ' , i've been able to love myself more . I've never realised how important alone time is . I've reflected . I've dreamt . I've cried . I'm healing C: . I feel so proud of myself ! LOL .

Thanks Jace , Turtle and Alex for holding my hand every step of the way .

I don't understand why you guys are acting so childishly . Don't have the guts to say that its me ? Then don't post . Stop telling me that I'm being over-sensitive because Jn already admitted that its me . Stop thinking I'll forgive and forget as well. I've given up all hope on you guys . Goodbye .

Thank you .

Leave me alone .

I don't know why i have to reply anyway . I think its to get the thoughts off my chest . They have their childish friends to tell their troubles to . The words mean little to you , but i assure you , i'll remember them .

Fucking Poetic Justice .

2010-09-26T20:53:00.000+08:00

It hurts .

It hurts to walk .

It hurts to touch .

It hurts to bathe .

It hurts to wiggle .

It hurts to lie down .

It hurts to wake up .

My dear wounds ,

I hate you . I really do . Thanks for all the pain you caused me when i bathed . Thanks for making me suffer from lack of sleep . I hate you ): All of you ): . I'll never forgive you . I hope you poof like your cousins !!!

Dear Jace :3

I learnt that , taunting you works more than encouragements . I hope you achieve your dream . AND , WHAT`S WRONG WITH BEING A GYNAE ?!?

Dear Lucas ,

I don't wanna fwen you already .

2010-09-20T22:20:00.002+08:00

Crawl - Superchick

How long will this take?
How much can I go through?
My heart, my soul aches
I don't know what to do
I bend but don't break
And somehow I'll get through
'cause I have you

And if I have to crawl
Will you crawl too
I stumble and I fall
Carry me through
The wonder of it all
Is you
See me through

Oh Lord, where are you?
Do not forget me here
I cry in silence
Can you not see my tears?
When all have left me
And hope has disappeared
You find me here

And when I have to crawl
Will you crawl too
I stumble and I fall
Carry me through
The wonder of it all
Is you
See me through

When everything I was is lost
I have forgot where you have not
When I am lost you have not lost me(2x's)

You have not lost me

And if I have to crawl
Will you crawl too
I stumble and I fall
Carry me through
The wonder of it all
Is you
See me through

There was something wrong with the formatting . So .. 3 diff posts . Sorry ! :3

2010-09-20T22:19:00.000+08:00

Backstabber

You're a backstabber,
That's just who you are.
But in life
That wont get you far.
You do this
To all your friends.
You'll have none
In the end.
You always talk
Behind my back.
I guess it's social skills
You lack.
So me and you
Aren't friends no more.
Besides,
You were a whore. :D

2010-09-20T22:14:00.001+08:00

HOT OFF THE PRESS :3

Yuan Lin Tan Dont tell lies jus to defend yourself. We told you stop but you jus ignored us. Wht could we do? Stop blaming others. Jus reflect on wht you hve done.:D

Excuse-eee me ._. , saying it in your head doesn't count . :) Did i blame you ? I apologised . I admitted my mistake . Have you ? Try reading the back of your student organiser . Cyber-bullying is a crime I stated a fact . You reflect on what you did . It helps for D`n'T .

HuiFang TiggeryTiggy Por Because that's what you think.

B`cos you and Py apparently think that you two created the world ._. . Fyi , what you thought wrongly can fill an exercise book . ~

Wai Theng 'gaged 양요섭 Sometimes having ONLY boys revolving around you isn't a good idea.../

Boys are generally better than girls . :) . Although i wouldn't admit it to most people's faces . Guys are not as petty as girls and can take jokes better ~ Neither do they gang up to argue over a stick man with pimples .

Juening 珏宁 i used facial cream to wash my face so tat i wont hav PIMPLES. And oso applied anti frizz serum on my hair so tat it ont be frizzy and OILY. Anw no amountof pimple wash u use will clear those pimples on ur face HuiFang TiggeryTiggy Por Wai ThengSeob's 양요섭 Xin Jie Lurvlurvs Seraphina WinniedeePooh Yuan Lin Tan Peyyin-xun'Lov 이기광

Erm , okay ._. fine , this isn't exactly new .

I do use facial cream , perhaps its b`cos i don't use a $1k+ facial cream that produces instant results , thats why you cant see the difference :) . My hair isn't as frizzy now as it was ~ perhaps , instead of giving these advice to me , you should give advice to Py on how to remove dandruff . I've never heard of pimple wash . Of course i no amount will clear it ._. , i don't have the wash . :)

正紧事。 LOL

Caught in the Act

Posted on 05 Nov 2009

Arrogant ACJCians mock and cyber-bully 'O' level students on FB

Some students, reportedly from Anglo-Chinese Junior College (ACJC), have been taunting younger students taking the 'O' level Social Studies paper this year. One of them even posted vulgarities on the Facebook group.
STOMPer David is disturbed by the lack of maturity displayed by the students from a prestigious junior college.
According to the STOMPer, some of the insults have already been deleted by the ACJC students "out of fear".
In an email from the STOMPer:
"This incident happened on a Facebook group based on GCE 'O' Levels 2009 Social Studies paper.
"Some students from ACJC decided they were bored and came to mock the class of 2009.
"Arrogant and snobbish, they looked down on the students as lesser beings.
"Not only that, cyber bullying took place as they spewed vulgarities at the students.
"When the commotion died down, a few of them deleted their insulting posts out of fear.
"This act of immaturity, coming from a prestigious and elite junior college of Singapore? Very disturbing indeed."

Solutions to cyber bullying

Set a law to ban bullying with punishment of heavy fines & banning Internet or use of computer of any sort for 1 year. (Monitored periodically by all ISP) Violators get jail & fines.
Tracking all bullies by their “IP Address” and catch by cyber crime police department and share the information internationally.
Label all these bullies as terrorist as they are posing as much threat to the general population as terrorist do.They often succeed in causing grieve, sadness, fear and depression that will cost the society dearly in the long run.
If bullies can get away from “indirect killing” their victims, it’s the same as crashing planes into buildings.
All blogs & networking sites (facebook, friendsters, myspace and etc) to change their terms and condition to add in banning all abusive accounts permanently that committed excessive unfriendly comments or behaviors such as taunting or “flaming” other users or members.

JACE ' JELLY-BELLY ' ZHUU ~

Surpass all expectations . Knock down the barriers . You're all that's stopping you .

Supporting you throughout your ' out of this earth ' dream <3

The alternative is to be a Gynae . Remember that . LOL

And ya , I plan to tell Miss Zhang the truth to get my marks if she asks :D Which , she amazingly , didn't .

Be prepared for a bombard of sms-es at night . :3 .

._. So free now ;

2010-09-19T22:02:00.001+08:00

I'm bored .

~~ Bored ~~

` {!} Saturday ;

Girls' Brigade 48th Coy ROCKS ! :3 We had our fun outing today . <3 We played a game called , i think its called anyway ' Leng GUUUU ! Nah Ley Lu Ga ! ' It means , Are you watching ? I am watching . LOL . So funnnnny . I didn't understand the ma'ams' tutorial though :x confusing game just by sight . We tried different variations like ' Le Kua Simi ! Wa Kua Le ! ' [ But Initiative is a ' Nothing , Nothing , A bit with Dialects .. So .. We didn't try out this ): ] , ' Are you watching ? I am watching . ' and ‘ 你在看吗？我在看！’ Funny die ! LOL :3

Ma`am Py was like ' Now can we have the PICNICCC ?!?! ' LOL . :x So CUTE <3 . Initiative are true Gourmets . LOL .
We had ..

Appetiser :
- Ma`am Mandy's Delicious Potato Salad :)
- Sandwiches ( i think they're appetisers @.@ )

Main Course:
Eunice's Delicious Spicy Bee Hoon :D

Side Dish :
Eunice`s Too-Die-For Fried Enoki Mushrooms

Dessert :
Ma`am Py's Addictive Bitter-Sweet Chocolate Brownie With Extra Chocolate Sauce :)
[ Sorry i couldn't finish my share @@ ]

The picnic was so enjoyable ! Until ...
Ma`am Rachel`s Squad Integrity came with their SMALL waterguns ): !!!

That began the screaming , plotting , revenge . LOL :x We drowned Ma`am Ray's LEGS ! :3

Initiative had our own water crazy time C: . Dawn , Yun Ting , Esther and Jay Min all looked like drenched chickens [ no pun intended ] . Cherie and I had our period ): too worried will leak . SIGHHHHH .

But loads of people had their ' best friends ' over ): . So sad . I PRAYYYYY , that i won't have it during camps . LOL . i haven't forgotten that Dragon-Boating trick Naomi played on me ):

Sunday

Woke up and slacked for a few hours on bed , texting Feizhuzhu . <3

I'd listen to you and endure . I just wish it wasn't so hard .
I understand that I'm not suffering the most in the world . B`cos i have you .

Btw , underwear colour apparently plays a part in a person's development or something . JVC's an unique individual who wants to be lovesick and is jealous of people who are manly . HAHA

LATEST UPDATE :

Xin Jie Lurvlurvs pls lar,we gave u chances lei.n now u still blame us,giving excuses.. Peyyin-xun'Lov 이기광 HuiFang TiggeryTiggy Por Wai ThengSeob's 양요섭 Juening 珏宁 Yuan Lin Tan Seraphina WinniedeePooh

If you misunderstood my intentions , that's not my fault .

Peyyin-xun'Lov 이기광 i'm sick and tired of explainin all te stuffs to ppl - i don't care now if u say tat i am mean or wad cuz tis shows tat u dun really understand me . i am tired ...

Peyyin-xun'Lov 이기광 No1 actually understand it - they juz lookin at te matters at a very shallow lvl and conclude wad they can conclude . Isnt tat hurtin enough ?

No one really understands it , is it because they are looking at it at a shallow level , or because your explanation sucks ?

And , last but not least ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOYFRIEND [ A.K.A DEBORAH ] I LOVE YOU ;mua mua mua mua mua !

P.S. Cece, I don't owe you kisses . :)

` LifeFcksYouHard ;

2010-09-18T01:24:00.003+08:00

Seraphina WinniedeePooh I know you're trying to let everyone like you. I've been trying to tolerate because I know you're trying your best but... it's wrong. You made her really AGITATED. I guess you should really reflect on what you did. HuiFang TiggeryTiggy Por Peyyin-xun'Lov 이기광 Xin Jie Lurvlurvs Wai ThengSeob's 양요섭 Yuan Lin Tan Juening 珏宁

How was i to know if she would get agitated so easily ? I thought that it was a small matter and that a person with a big heart would just let it go . Why are you saying its so wrong now when you were there when i did it ?

Yuan Lin Tan U r in the wrong,u should know it urself&feel guilty.Do u agree?You claim tht u dun mind bein alone. but i dun tink it's true.. Did they invite u?Did u even ask for their opinion/permission or did u jus cling onto them like a super glue?R you sure u reali dun mind it or is it tht u oni said it jus for our forgiveness?H...uiFang TiggeryTiggy Por Peyyin-xun'Lov 이기광
Wai ThengSeob's 양요섭 Xin Jie Lurvlurvs Juening 珏宁
Seraphina WinniedeePooh

Fine , you're right . I apologise for lying . I hate being alone . B`cos it gives me too much time to think of my past . No , they did not invite me , and no , i didn't cling onto them like super glue , and lastly , no , i didn't say it for your or their forgiveness . If people have to invite you to be around them , i doubt anyone will be around each other accept for at parties. I didn't cling onto them like superglue . No.1 Jas was arguing with Crys , whats wrong with me talking to her? Its not like we're enemies . We're from the same cca . Its not a superglue stick . I didn't say it for your or their forgiveness . I said it to make myself believe that i'm strong .

Yuan Lin Tan lol. pathetic leh. she dont even know wht she did wrongly. mayb she doesnt know tht she is selfish... does she know it or she jus thinks tht there is nothing wrong wif her?? HuiFang TiggeryTiggy Por Peyyin-xun'Lov 이기광 Wai ThengSeob's 양요섭 Juening 珏宁 Xin Jie Lurvlurvs Seraphina WinniedeePooh

I didn't know what i did wrongly b`cos at first , I thought that you guys were just rallying around Py after I posted that status about her . Secondly , I didn't think of a picture , because , like i said , i felt it was a small affair . If i knew it , i would've apologised about it after knowing that its not b`cos of Py . There's nothing wrong with me , if there`s nothing wrong with you , after all , you were there when i drew it , no ?

Wai ThengSeob's 양요섭 People will like you if you are being yourself but not just to get others favour. - the advice for today. (ps using phone can't tag, you all go like it, sorry.)

What if being myself means treating others with my money ? What if its my way of getting people to like me and be happy ?

HuiFang TiggeryTiggy Por Because sorry means NOTHING and then if you actually mean it, why did you even drew it? But its okay, I take it in my stride because I've got my bestest friends around me supporting me all the way. :D Peyyin-xun'Lov 이기광 Wai ThengSeob's 양요섭 Xin Jie Lurvlurvs Juening 珏宁 Seraphina WinniedeePooh Yuan Lin Tan

If being genuinely sorry meant nothing , there won't be second chances , ever . Everyone will be in hell. Parents will never forgive their children. A lot of people will be living with guilt in their hearts. I meant my apology . I drew it b`cos at that time , i felt that it was harmless , a small joke . After all , Sera and Yl were there , they laughed along , if they felt that it went against their morals to let me draw something like that , why didn't they stop and correct me ?

latest updates ~

It's weird , how people change their words to go with the majority . I solemnly remember Sera and Yuanlin laughing along when i drew the picture ._. . Since its on Sera's foolscap , i think i wouldn't have drawn it if they had strongly rejected . Ironic , huh . A true sorry and change , does mean something .

._. Enough wid the backstabbers .

My besties , my longest friends .

Who are they ? I know the ones i trust . The ones i cried for .

The ones that were worth it .

Ah well , only 3 . Sad , huh . :\

At least , I think , Juliano stood up for me . It wasn't a flattering defence . But ya , Thanks .

Anyways , yesterday night started out emoing-ly . Lol ! But who knew that Jace could poof out of no where to nag me about having more mature friends. Alex nagged me about that as well. Turtle as well. Lucas as well ._. . Damn , don't you guys understand the meaning of , THERE'S NO ONE ELSE ? :\

I practically laughed my ass off when i was talking to Jace . Talk about a case of a bad workman blames his tools . HAHAHAHA . Get over your phone , dude . C: . I keep having blog walkers in my chatbox . Weird . :\ . I swore i closed my blog . Ah .. well .. Blogger's weird . <3

Alex and Jace went ' chim ' yesterday . Talk about ' escalate their stupidity ' and ' the definition of health's that taken care of . ' I suppose i went chim as well , with Py . HAHAH . Technically , when you call a friend a ' sibling ' , she is not really your sibling , no ? Py gave some stupid excuse about being able to decide her life ._. So cool , she can change DNA .

I don't want these experiences. I want a normal childhood.

A Perfect Relationship Is Like A Rainbow

When The Right Amount Of Tears and Happiness Is Present

A Bridge Is Built Between Two Hearts

I suppose that can be said for friendship as well .

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This video is so cool.

It shows that true friendship and love waits and remembers.

Sometimes , i feel that animals are more humane than humans . Who made us the better species ? We hurt one another and cause extinction. Animals never did caused global warming or pollution. We should be at the bottom of the food-chain . Animals hunt for necessity . We hunt for pleasure . for personal gains . I feel so ashamed of being a Homo Sapien . [ our scientific name is bullshit . Not all humans are wise ]

Make Me Wanna Die lyrics

Take me, I'm alive, never was a girl with a wicked mind
But everything looks better, when the sun goes down
I had everything, opportunities for eternity and I
could belong to the night
Your eyes, your eyes, I can see in your eyes, your eyes

You make me wanna die
I'll never be good enough
You make me wanna die
And everything you love, right up in the light
Every time I look inside your eyes
Make me wanna die

Taste me drink my soul, show me all the things that I
shouldn't know, when there's a new moon on the rise
I had everything, opportunities for eternity and I
could belong to the night
Your eyes, your eyes, I can see in your eyes, your eyes

You make me wanna die
I'll never be good enough
You make me wanna die
And everything you love, right up in the light
Every time I look inside your eyes (I'm running in the
light)
Make me wanna die

I would die for you, my love, my love
I would lie for you, my love, my love (make me wanna
die)
I would steal for you, my love, my love(make me
wanna die)
I would die for you, my love, my love

But up in the light...
Every time I look inside your eyes (I'm running in the
light)
Up inside your eyes (I'm running in the light)
Look inside your eyes
You make me wanna die

Dear Brain,

Sorry for overloading you with emo thoughts.

Dear Tummy,

Sorry for over-working you due to lack of appetite.

Dear Pillow,

Sorry for all the tears.

Dear Heart,

Sorry for all the damage.

Dear Me,

Sorry for being so gullible.

Dear Turtle / Y.T. / Yuru ,

I LOVE YOU :) . I hope you see your name easier now. Thanks you for numbing the pain.

Dear Alex ,

I'd like to say , thank you , once again . For standing beside me , and loving me throughout all my unreasonable troubles .Uoyevoli .

Dear Jace / Feizhuzhu's phone ,

Ahem , THANK YOU :) For irritating Jace and making me smile . You've taught him a valuable lesson called ' A bad workman blames his tools ' . And , tell him : ' No , i won't shuttup . I'll continue teasing you over your smsing skills :D '

Dear Dawnie ,

Although you will most probably never see this , I LOVE YOU :3 . But , i don't like you to torture myye BunBun . ):

Dear Cherie ,

Thank you for livening up our Shop 'n' Save trip . I don't think Dawnie will still be sane if you didn't come

Dear Ma`am Py ,

Thank you for not making 苦瓜 brownies :D !

wth ?

2010-09-17T21:54:00.000+08:00

RULES: Once you've been tagged, you must pass on this stupid note so that those obsessive pervert stalkers out there can find out more about you. After that, pass on the note to 15 friends so that more people can suffer. Failure to comply with the rules may result in loss of GC. (what the hell? ._.)

A-Z About You Questions:A - AVAILABLE: No

B - BIRTHDAY: 3rd May ♥

C - CRUSHING ON: J.C

D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Coke

E - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: My Crush .

F - FAVORITE SONG: Shontelle - impossible [ at the moment ]

G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: bears .

H - HOMETOWN: Singapore ? -.-

I - IN LOVE WITH: J.C.

J - JUGGLE: School , Work And Private Life .

K - KILLED SOMEONE: Not Yet

L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: How long does it take to reach Genting / KL / Malacca ? :\

M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Chocolate

N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: None

O - ONE WISH: To be able to turn back time .

P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: Celine Ong

R- REASON TO SMILE: Love

S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: Fuck You

T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 9am

U - UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN: Light blue with Sunday written on top . LOL .

V - VEGETABLE(S): Rabbit food .

W - WORST HABIT: Unable to forget him .

X - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD: Some .

Y – YOYOS ARE: Stupid

Z - ZODIAC SIGN: taurus

Random Questions About You:
Spell your name without vowels: dn ? -.-

What color do you wear most?: Black .

Least favorite color?:Aquamarine

What are you listening to?: songs

Are you happy with your life right now?: okok

What is your favorite class in school?: PE

When do you start back at school/college?:o.o

Are you outgoing?: YUP

Favorite pair of shoes?: sandals

Where do you wish you were right now?: smwhere over te rainbow :D

Can you dance?: of course

Can you tie a cherry stem with your mouth?: for wad ?!

Can you whistle?: yes

Write with both hands?: NO.

Walk with your toes curled?: YES

THE DO'S:

Do you believe there is life on other planets?: YES

Do you believe in miracles?: YES

Do you believe in magic?: YES AND NO

Love at first sight?: YESH!

Do you believe in Satan?: DK

Do you believe in Santa?: NO

Do you know how to swim? YES

Do you like roller coasters?: YES > SO FUN :DD

Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: erm.. maybe ?!

THE HAVES:

Have you ever been on a plane?: of course

Have you ever asked someone out?: yes alot of times

Have you ever been asked out by someone?: yes alot of times also

Have you ever been to the ocean?: yes

Have you ever painted your nails?: yesh

THE WHATS:

What is the temperature outside?: 37?

What radio station do you listen to?: 93.3fm

What was the last restaurant you ate at? : mac

What was the last thing you bought?:chocolates

What was the last thing on TV you watched?: comedy

THE WHOS

:Who was the last person you IM'd? : ?

Who was the last person you took a picture with?: my frens

Who was the last person you said I love you to?: smone

CRYING SECTION:

Ever really cried your heart out?: yesh

Ever cried yourself to sleep?:Yesh

Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?:Yes

.Ever cried over the opposite sex?: yes ?
Do you cry when you get an injury?: NO- i very brave :DD

Do certain songs make you cry?: YESH

HAPPY SECTION:

Are you a happy person?: of course

What can make you happy?: depends

yDo you wish you were happier?: no thx i very happy lezxc

Can music make you happy?: yes

LOVE SECTION:

How many times have you had your heart broken?: nv

Have you ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?: nt yet

LOOK AT ME:

What is your current hair color?: black

Current piercings?: ears

Have any tattoos?: No

Eye color?: brown

IN A BOY/GIRL: erm .. appearance ? and personality :DD

Favorite eye color: blue

Short or long hair:long-ish short .
Height:He can wear high heels for all i care :D

Best clothing: DK

HAVE YOU EVER:

Been to jail: no

Mooned someone: huh ?

Laughed so hard you cried: yesh

Cried in school:yes

Thrown up in a store:yes

Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today: yes

THIS OR THAT: that

Pepsi or Coke:coke

McDonald's or Burger King: mc

Single or Group Dates:single

Chocolate or Vanilla: choco

Strawberries or Blueberries: blueberries

Meat or Veggies: abit abit

TV or Movie: movie

Guitar or Drums?: DRUMS !!

Adidas or Nike: NIKE

Chinese or Mexican Food?: chi

Cheerios or Corn Flakes: none

Cake or Pie:cake

MTV or VH1: MTV

Quelle belle journée ;

2010-09-16T21:54:00.002+08:00

HI , I'm BACK <3 ;shy :3

Actually , not in a good mood today . I was pissed yesterday . I'm disappointed today :) . I'd say I'm fine to my real friends , but that will be lying .

When i first came to Zhonghua and saw 1e5 , I remember being scared, alone and frantic . Putting on a calm exterior was hard. I just wanted to make friends.

Flash forward 5 months .

I had friends. I swore, i was going to make myself friendship trouble-free. I was guilty , you know . Of backstabbing someone i really cared about .

I felt like a cockroach when they were angry at me.

But I had a guy-friend that made my life bear-able. Now he's gone. Not dead or anything, but living his own life. That hurt too, losing a ' lover ' , but i got through with my ' friends ' and GB mates in ZHSS . It was great while it lasted, playing like lunatics everyday ~ Eating out together, teasing each other, waiting for one another after CCA. Basically , just being ourselves.

I now ~~regret~~ feel , that i was stupid to let down my guard.

Maybe it was because i didn't trust them , didn't tell them about myself. They misunderstood my actions and vice versa. I'm a person who's a fucking bitch to people i don't like , and I'll 拍 the 马屁 of people i do. I don't really care about money , i don't mind treating them because it pleases me . Not because i want to show off . If it was to show off , I wouldn't share . I didn't need to .

It all changed on a fine sunny morning.

Actually , afternoon. I remember realising things i ignored. Things i missed out. It was simple, just a small action . But it showed how i was treated DIFFERENTLY . Why was it that no one cares when i just needed a small favour, but when others asked the same favour, it was fought upon who would help. We were walking towards the MRT then , at the traffic light. A bicycle driven by a crazy old man zoomed passed me at an insane speed. I didn't give any reaction. I was too engrossed in my thoughts of betrayal . Py,Hf,Wt and Xj commented on how ‘冷静’ i was . I didn't want to answer , I couldn't . It reminded me of an unpleasant incident last year where i lost my 3 besties for a couple of months.

This wasn't a white lie. I wanted them to stop lying .

I was smsing a close friend when i sent it wrongly to Hf. From there , i poured out all my troubles and pissed-off incidents. I could tell , she wouldn't understand. Why? I don't know . I've always been weird , unique , unusual . But after that emo night, i started talking to them again. It took a few more days before Wt started talking to me again. I don't know why, but I've always liked her best. It was upsetting when she wouldn't talk to me. hahaha . I sound like a kid with her mom angry at her. But that was how i felt.

Carrying on to the June hols.

Stupid school had to give us a gigantic load of homework. + projects . Naturally , i teamed up with Wt,Hf,Xj and Py . And also , I went for my Taiwan trip. Before i went for my Taiwan trip, we had two weeks to prepare our project . But my dad had his holidays during the second week . Due to his hectic schedule, normally i can only see him once a month . I hate sharing him when these precious times are all i have. I was selfish . Ya . I said i was busy and left the others to the work during the second week. `Cos of school activities and Wt's Guangzhou trip, not much work was done during the first week. I should have felt guilty leaving them in the lurch . But i didn't , i was too busy having fun.

In my point of view , they had kinda , sorta , somehow , maybe forgived me for that .

After that , bring us to the most present complication

I've argued with them again. Not them actually , just Py . I was upset and pissed by her action. The day was .. sunny ? i don't remember. We were staying back after school to make our lanterns :) . I wasn't really going to stay back. I wanted to go home. I had to hand in my Maths file and i needed to chiong ): . However , i decided to stay back. Who could resist spending a joyous afternoon with my ' friends ' .

We went for lunch at kovan as we also needed to buy some supplies , namely white glue . Most of all , we needed a change of food :\ . We went to eat Yoshinoya . :\ quite ex. I wasn't planning to eat out or anything , so i didn't have much money left ._. . And i had to pay extra 2.20 for the MRT ticket . So .. quite reluctant .. But i still went with them . ( mostly b`cos i was out-voted )

After an epic lunch , we walked to POPULAR . It was closed , for some damning reason ._. . But we went into Comics' Connection ~ At first , i didn't mind . I enjoyed buying Kpop stuff , after all :3 . But when we were running out of time , i started to get a bit .. ah , upset ? namely , i was bored . I didn't have money to buy anything . So what was the point of looking ? I remember reminding them that it was almost 3.30 - 3.45 . I was happily ignored ~

I walked out and tried to call Deborah . She was in school ): . Celine was in school as well ): . I was bored to tears manzxcs . And i had a feeling that we wouldn't have time to finish the project , again . ._. Really , i swear , i was responsible . For that one time . So i went back , and told XJ to tell them that it's getting late and we still HAD TO FIND WHITE GLUE >_<.

Unfairness to the max. They listened to her but not to me.

Fast forward . Skip the china man talking about the 8 girls thing .

Ya , well . We still walked back to school slowly . Predictable ._. but with a 麦芽糖 in my mouth , i was happier :3 . i bought a grape one and Py bought a Sarsi one . Heh . I more gan chiong , so eat-ed first . When back to class and started . Wt , Xj and i were poking holes in the piggy :x .Py and Hf worked on the elephant . They were arguing a bit , but okay la . Py's sarsi 麦芽糖 helped . LOL . ( jkjk , i have no idea where's the link . ) So .. poking holes take little time , we then went to talk and advice Hf and Py . I was kinda gan chiong to get back . :\ . I didn't want to get scolded , by mr pandiyan or my mother .

Then when i was listening / chatting with the others , Py's 麦芽糖 came dangerously close to my hair ._. Dang , i told her that , and shifted my head so my freefall fringe's safer .

but she moved her damn 麦芽糖 as well .

So , of course , it sticked until my hair . Small matter right ? i don't really care about my hair , actually . but let me relay our convo .

PeyYin: EEEEEEEE!!!!

Me: WALAO . MY FRINGE! ( kpkb(s) and vulgar all over)

PeyYin : Your hair nevermind one la , 本来就 stick 在一起，no difference.

That was the phrase that got me pissed . I swore manzxs , i was momentarily speechless with anger . AT LEAST APOLOGISE BEFORE MAKING THAT COMMENT RIGHT .

So ya , i really got pissed . So after they finished and when they were going to wash brushes, i zao-ed . Pissed lor . No mood talk to anyone . When i reached home , i kpkb to Hf and Wt . But no one really gave me the audience to make me feel better. I wanted to abuse Py , make myself feel better , ya`know .

So i posted a mean and purposely insulting post to Py .

{!} Peyyin-xun'Lov 이기광 I hope you won't mind if i drip white chocolate on your hair tomorrow C: . After all , it won't make a difference , your hair's already black with white dots ~ this isn't wrong , right ? After all , humans are able to tell right from wrong . If doing it was wrong , you'd have apologized C: .

Ya , well , it was wrong . I know , but i just saw red , you know . :\ . But after that , the next next morning i saw posts from Py , Hf , Jn and Wt .

'Peyyin-xun'Lov 이기광

all u noe is to talk crap actually i feel sad for ur pimples face bt nw i nt :D u hate backstabbers huh? thn u hate yrself 2 cuz u r 1 IDIOTIC and STUPID backstabber only know hw to SAJIAO - and is so damn disgustin ACT CUTE in front of te tchrs is NT CUTE u brin mirror to sch evryday bt i DOUBT u used it to look at YR FACE HuiFang TiggeryTiggy Por Wai ThengSeob's 양요섭 Xin Jie Lurvlurvs Juening 珏宁 Yuan Lin Tan Seraphina WinniedeePooh '

If i only know how to talk crap , why would i pass my oral and book review tests ? You shouldn't feel sorry for my pimples [ i never asked you to ] , because , after all , i caused them from lack of care . I hate backstabbers , and no , i don't feel that i'm a backstabber. Because the definition of backstabbing is '

to attempt to discredit (a person) by underhanded means, as innuendo, accusation, or the like. ' I don't think that drawing pimples on Hf's face is trying to discredit her . If i'm idiotic and stupid , are you insulting the rest of the students in Technical and Normal ? Maybe its me to 撒娇 . If its so disgusting , why only say it now ? Why not before this sweet incident ? Are you a true friend if you spot your friend's mistake and did not attempt to correct me ? I bring a mirror to school everyday to pick at blackheads , not to cheat . I admit cheating before , but that was the past . If you don't believe it , fine . My conscience is clear .

'Wai ThengSeob's 양요섭 Well, do u actually know that agitating ppl wif BANDS n STUFFS that you don't actuaaly like is not good for ur health?Spending money just to show off is obviously SICKENING. but who cares when u can't even afford to buy a fast food meal from now onwards, when u had so much money to show off at the start of the year? Yuan Lin Tan Juening 珏宁 Seraphina WinniedeePooh Xin Jie Lurvlurvs Peyyin-xun'Lov 이기광 HuiFang TiggeryTiggy Por . ...! '

Is it not good for my health or their health ? And what is classified under ' STUFFS ' ? Is UG under that ? If you thought i was showing off then , why didn't you correct me ? Like before , are you a true friend if you spot your friend's mistake and did not attempt to correct me ? Was it because remaining in my favour would get the advantages of treats to meals , sweets and tidbits? Apparently , your dislike is only towards me because at the start of our friendship , most of you deemed Yoshinoya as ' expensive ' as well . If you were fair , shouldn't you not care about the rest of the ' gang ' as well ?

'HuiFang TiggeryTiggy Por Oh. So i'm to blame for not having pimples then? Am I right? So. Supposingly. Since you want pimple so much, you can have those you drew back on your face. :D Because I don't need it. But I know you do. :DD Right? Peyyin-xun'Lov 이기광 Seraphina WinniedeePooh Wai ThengSeob's 양요섭 Xin Jie Lurvlurvs Yuan Lin Tan Juening 珏宁'

I never said you were to blame , no ? Your assumptions are wrong. I never said i wanted pimples , the stickman wasn't labelled as ' dion tan shi han ' . And , i don't need pimples :) . I already have them . Why would anyone ever need them ? Perhaps you can start a webpage that provides the 5 uses of pimples .

Juening 珏宁 Aww. looks lk somebody is so LONELY tat she has to stick wif those guai kias in the class. hmm. will her results improve den? anybody wanna see how WELL she does in class by sleeping? i hav the photos. come to me any time to see it. i am glad to show ALL of your:) she does not even noe how to spell 'fucking' isnt tat p...athetic? HuiFang TiggeryTiggy Por Peyyin-xun'Lov 이기광 Xin Jie Lurvlurvs Wai ThengSeob's 양요섭 Yuan Lin Tan Seraphina WinniedeePooh :)

Ya, I'm lonely . However , how does sticking with those ' guai kias ' in class prove it ? Didn't you and Hp claim to be ' guai kias ' and wanting to listen in class ? I don't think my results will improve . I don't speak about worksheets and stuffzcxs with them ~ You have the photos of how well i do in class by sleeping ? When did you steal my test papers and took photos ? I don't feel that its a disgrace not knowing how to spell ' fucking ' , after all , it is a vulgarity . I feel that it is a disgrace not knowing how to spell ' like ' . It was taught to us at Primary 1 , no ?

I was really pissed then. I don't like people who hide behind their friends . All i wanted was a fuucking apology , not insults back . -.- . I thought i made that clear when i smsed Py's bestie , Hf and Py's beastie , Wt .

I'm not sure why they bother to put them . But they certainly don't work. If i wronged them about the posts, So sorry ~

Today at school , was okay , i guess . Turtle made it bearable . Thank you , for siding with me , and telling me i'm not stupid , although i truly am , in some ways ~ Jasmine's cute . So what if she's a guaikia , didn't Jn and Hp , CLAIM to be guaikias ? hmmm. I didn't see my results improving . Didn't some people sleep in science lessons as well ? :3 . In front of the teacher as well . tsk. Sad sia . When people type out insults without thinking that they actually have already done that before . If its about spelling mistakes , so sad manzxcs ._. . She doesn't know how to spell ' like ' .

Thank you Turtle , for being a true friend.

Thank you Jace, for telling me that being arrogant is a way of protecting myself, I'm sorry , really , that i didn't listen.

Thank you Alex , for sticking by me although i'm so unreasonable .

I don't know why i'm writing all these. Because i feel overloaded with feelings ? maybe . I hate writing . Maybe that's why i'm typing . It's open to everyone . Feizhuzhu, here's your visual diary . :)

Jn,Py,Xj,Wt,Hf ,

Thank you for the ' fck th love ' relationship . I hope you do enough good to get over your conscience .

LA LA LA

2010-08-12T15:37:00.000+08:00

My stupid connection linky thingy just spoilt .

Damn .

Kill me ): .

WHATTHEFUUUUUUUUUUUCK ): . MY COM >: . How long do i have to survive with it manzxcs .. - cries like shit - Singnet , pl0x , return me my money ): + bang th wall and die ):

School's frigging tiring nowadays . ( am at school bytheway , they just off-ed the air-con . -.- )

Tuesday 10th August

Went movieeee with Wai Theng , Hui Fang and Pey Yin C; . XinJie couldn't come ): . Sad die . Her brother's birthday . While we ate ~~expensive~~ kopitiam food , she was eating buffet ): . Dang it !!!!

we watched Bangkok Traffic Love Story

Funny dai . Guys , here's some tips :

1. Don't wear skinny jeans that are too tight . Ever .

2. Don't skateboard while you're fighting with someone .

3. Don't buy a too-big bouquet of flowers that can seriously injure someone .

4. Don't sleep when there's a crazy sleepy-pig girl around .

5. Hold onto your items tight when a crazy girl's around . LOL

Further elaboration when asked C; . heehee .

A TRULY MUST WATCH

Wednesday 11th August

Had DnT today ( or that day anyways ) , I FINALLY ASSEMBLED MY STUPID EZ-LINK CARD HOLDER FINISSSSS . OLE OLE OLE <3 SO FUN :3 . ( i only say that when i finally finished it :3 )

No other big memories . Sad . C: .

P.S. Someone . Just someone . She doesn't need a name . Is being a total bitch in class . I'm one as well . But i fuucking hate her fuucking attitude .

Je t'aime ;

Hi :>

-` K's .

-` Tired ):

-` 情人节 ♥

-` 怕安靜 .

-` Sober intoxication -

-` Because I've walked in your footsteps ;

-` Only girl in the world ♥

-` 初恋情人 ；

-` IKEA ♥

-` Chicks over Deeks :)

- ` 红包 ！:D

-` 恭喜发财 －

` &. LALALA -

` &. Adapt . -

` &. Content - ;

` &. Beetch -

` &. Weekends ♥ -

` &. Sunday . -

` &. Complicated - ;

Hey :D .

` &. Congratulations , ^^ .

What to do ?

~ Bored .

` &. Disney .. ;

` &.HONGKONG ;

` &. Unexpected ;

` &. Fly Free . ;

` &. Childhood

` &. Uncertainty ;

` &. Salonpas .

` &. Bliss . !

` &. Camp ;D

` &. Happy Birthday Darling ~

` &. Topsy Turvy .

` &. Freedom . ;

` &. Tired . ;

` &. GoneInAFlash .

` &. 甜甜的 。

` &. Innocence

` &. Friends Or Lovers ?

` &. Silent Screams

` &. Friends ;

` &. Poor Man`s Apology

` &. Trust .

`&. Gravity !

` &. Love bites . ;

:DD

Laziness .

): !

Albee , 나는 정말 빌어먹을 실망이야 .

Thanks Jace , Turtle and Alex for holding my hand every step of the way .

I don't understand why you guys are acting so childishly . Don't have the guts to say that its me ? Then don't post . Stop telling me that I'm being over-sensitive because Jn already admitted that its me . Stop thinking I'll forgive and forget as well. I've given up all hope on you guys . Goodbye .

Thank you .

Leave me alone .

Fucking Poetic Justice .

Crawl - Superchick

HOT OFF THE PRESS :3

Yuan Lin Tan Dont tell lies jus to defend yourself. We told you stop but you jus ignored us. Wht could we do? Stop blaming others. Jus reflect on wht you hve done.:D

Excuse-eee me ._. , saying it in your head doesn't count . :) Did i blame you ? I apologised . I admitted my mistake . Have you ? Try reading the back of your student organiser . Cyber-bullying is a crime I stated a fact . You reflect on what you did . It helps for D`n'T .

HuiFang TiggeryTiggy Por Because that's what you think.

B`cos you and Py apparently think that you two created the world ._. . Fyi , what you thought wrongly can fill an exercise book . ~

Wai Theng 'gaged 양요섭 Sometimes having ONLY boys revolving around you isn't a good idea.../

Boys are generally better than girls . :) . Although i wouldn't admit it to most people's faces . Guys are not as petty as girls and can take jokes better ~ Neither do they gang up to argue over a stick man with pimples .

Erm , okay ._. fine , this isn't exactly new .

正紧事 。 LOL

._. So free now ;

Xin Jie Lurvlurvs pls lar,we gave u chances lei.n now u still blame us,giving excuses.. Peyyin-xun'Lov 이기광 HuiFang TiggeryTiggy Por Wai ThengSeob's 양요섭 Juening 珏宁 Yuan Lin Tan Seraphina WinniedeePooh

If you misunderstood my intentions , that's not my fault .

Peyyin-xun'Lov 이기광 i'm sick and tired of explainin all te stuffs to ppl - i don't care now if u say tat i am mean or wad cuz tis shows tat u dun really understand me . i am tired ...

Peyyin-xun'Lov 이기광 No1 actually understand it - they juz lookin at te matters at a very shallow lvl and conclude wad they can conclude . Isnt tat hurtin enough ?

No one really understands it , is it because they are looking at it at a shallow level , or because your explanation sucks ?

And , last but not least ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOYFRIEND [ A.K.A DEBORAH ] I LOVE YOU ;mua mua mua mua mua !

P.S. Cece, I don't owe you kisses . :)

` LifeFcksYouHard ;

How was i to know if she would get agitated so easily ? I thought that it was a small matter and that a person with a big heart would just let it go . Why are you saying its so wrong now when you were there when i did it ?

Wai ThengSeob's 양요섭 People will like you if you are being yourself but not just to get others favour. - the advice for today. (ps using phone can't tag, you all go like it, sorry.)

What if being myself means treating others with my money ? What if its my way of getting people to like me and be happy ?

-` 初恋情人；

- ` 红包！:D

-` 恭喜发财－

` &. 甜甜的。

正紧事。 LOL